im not confused. i dont think so anyway...i know what i like and what i dont through many years of trial and error. including this past one. ....especially this past one..but thats not what gets me. not confusion. its not knowing. not knowing what is going to happen. not knowing how she feels. granted she doesnt even know that herself but i guess ( Read more... )

Nothin new ( Read more... )

Well its too early to tell yet, but things are looking much better with anna. Were actually talking at least. A couple of nights ago i went to the beta party and ended up talking to her until about 5 in the morning. Then last night i went up there to talk to her again and just kinda hang out and we walked around walmart and meijer talking, then ( Read more... )

January ( Read more... )

Well im doing my best to get over her but somehow i just cant keep her off my mind. I need to believe that shes given up on me and shes never coming back. I need to move on with my life. I know that im never going to stop loving her, but how long until i stop feeling like shit? Like i dont matter? I want to get over it. I want to get over her so ( Read more... )

here i am at 3:31 am and not only can i not sleep, but i feel pretty down as well. ive done everything that i can think of to get through to anna and at every turn ive failed miserably. im tired of wishing and hoping and being optimistic. its finally gotten through to me that she and i are really over. for good. it only took 4 months. i just didnt ( Read more... )

I cant stop thinking..and i am worried about a certain someone. It turns out that her fears were correct about her grandmother having cancer-its lymphoma. And i know how much its affected her and made her worry. I truly wish that there was some way that I could do something for her. Whether to make her feel better or hell just to make her smile ( Read more... )

well, mom and tom have left for vermont to get everything and bring dylan back. i was supposed to go but had to work and they werent going to be back until thursday. everything else is pretty much ok tho. we went and got a real tree this year and i got to cut it down which was kinda fun(with my mom and emily being loons the whole time takin picture ( Read more... )

It has recently occured to me that i may have been a bit out of line with my last "real" post. I mean ya i was angry and ya i wanted to lash out and ya i didnt think anybody would actually end up reading it, but i shouldnt have tried to be hurtful. Thats exactly the behavior that im trying to stay above. I apologize to the person it was directed at ( Read more... )

Ok. I realize that you are angry at me for some reason even though I don't know what it is. (This is why I have not been in choir for the past 2 weeks. To give you some space and not feel overwhelmed by my presence.) However, I am not the asshole that you keep telling everyone I am. And I did NOT cheat on you, and I have had sex with NOONE but you ( Read more... )