so here i sit. thinking. questioning. wondering ( Read more... )

so i thought i would update in the four-make that three minutes that i have. things have been extremely busy and confusing and active in the past couple of weeks. i have done everything that i can think to do to my house and im still not finished. although we did get it appraised finally. for what amount i have no clue though. anyway i was just ( Read more... )

and im actually feeling better than i have in a long time. ive learned a few things lately-or i suppose ive realized a few. and im done feeling like i cant achieve anything. im done waiting and counting the minutes and seconds as they pass ever so slowly and quickly by. ive been so afraid of watching my life pass me by that ive in fact (ironicly) ( Read more... )

i am so unbelievably tired of people not caring. especially the ones that are supposed to care the most. i dont know what to say. my best friend doesnt even seem to care anymore. im beginning to think hes not really even my friend anymore. and ive never been anything but a friend to him and he just acts like theres something wrong with me. just ( Read more... )

...i talked to anna tonight and i think that we may have come to an understanding. i am going to give her some space and time. but i refused and refuse to give up when i know that she still loves me. right now i just cant do anything else but wait. i truly feel like i have done everything that i could. i told her to never forget that someone loves ( Read more... )

well i was going to go to halle's recital tonight because she invited me but then i saw that anna and dave were both going and i think that would just be a bit awkward for me. plus i dont really want to find out if she really would ignore me and talk to him the whole time. so i guess im going to go out with chels tonight instead. i was going to go ( Read more... )

words cannot describe how hurt i feel. i cant take it anymore. the past 6 months have been hell and ive stuck by with her basically spitting in my face at every turn. and now im the one being unreasonable. fuck me she says. shes not going to put up with any shit? what shit? How about every person she is even remotely friends with thinking that shes ( Read more... )

so i dont really know how i feel right now..i have tried a couple of times to send her a quick message saying hi but ive gotten no reply both times. i mean how hard is it to say hi. and i know that she has gotten them. i feel like she just flat doesnt care. or doesnt care enough to show it. there is only so much i can take and im reaching that ( Read more... )

well here i sit. broken once again. but this time for a different reason. or rather same reason, different how. long story short, anna and i started talking again and things were going wonderfully, then her mother got the phone bill and was surprised to see my number all over it. anna had neglected to tell her. so her mother made a decree that anna ( Read more... )

in case anybody was wondering, that last entry was just me venting a bit..im not upset in the least. *smile*