To be perfectly honest, I am overwhelmed.

Like, I feel like I am constantly treading water. I'm never moving forward or sinking down. I am just engaged in this costant battle to keep my head above the water.

And, in actuality, I just want to lie down.

For my 5th year high school reunion I got a car that said batman and I was supposed to find robin.

I never did.

I fell down the stairs though.

Things aren't moving forward or backwards or even laterally ( Read more... )

When do you know when to let go?

So on Thursday I am getting on a plane for Sweden. I am not prepared. I am awake because I just keep writing lists of all the things I need to do tomorrow. And on the lists are things that inevitably will not get done, and I know won't get done, and I just keep obsessing over them ( Read more... )

-See how it quivers, on the brink.
-What?
-Everything!

I have absolutely no reason to be optimistic about anything. So why the hell not be?

The month of May is always volatile for me.

I always end up wishing I was just someone else. Maybe that should end soon. Maybe it will end when it is June.

On a day like today, I think aaron sorkin could say it best ( Read more... )

in 37 days it will all be ok.

until then i am frantic.

my mother has a theory that people are only so smart. my whole life i have been trying to prove that theory wrong. i wish i wasn't trying anymore. sometimes, i really do wish that i could float and not desperately claw my way through this.

and remember: hubris, ate, nemesis.

I am starting to freak out a little ( Read more... )