Addictive Obsession - Chapter twenty five [part II]

[aroruae]

PART I

The door opened and Jin stayed in its frame for a couple of seconds, watching Koki’s trembling hands trying to open his zipper and not really succeeding it. He cleared his throat to make his presence known and entered the room when Koki finally let his eyes rest on him. “Good boy.” Jin praised, obviously satisfied with his pet’s obedience, his eyes burning with a dangerous and powerful licker in them as he approached the bed. “It’s enough for now.” He then added, sitting down next to the younger and putting his hand on Koki’s ones to stop them from going further. He had changed his mind and now wanted to have the pleasure of undressing Koki by himself.

Koki looked at Jin and couldn’t suppress the shivers that ran down his spine. God, was this man going to really touch him?! Was he really going to have intimate relations with a man?! And with Jin on top? No, it was crazy, he was crazy for accepting all this, but… Kazuya. His heart was beating fast against his ribs and besides looking disgusted, he also looked panicked. What was going to happen in this room, with Jin and him, will turn into a secret that he’ll take with him into tomb. He’ll never tell anyone, not even Kazuya.

“Just go with it already.” He growled, his voice hoarse and fuck, shaking too! He wasn’t afraid of Jin, no, Sir, indeed, but he was repulsed by what Jin was going to do to him and there was panic inside his chest, inside his rapid beating heart.

Jin chuckled, looking truly amused by Koki’s desire to finish this as quickly as possible. Too bad that Jin had other plans. “You look cute when you’re so scared.” He chuckled again and lifted his hand to slowly caress Koki’s cheek, letting his fingers brush against his skin and go lower, teasing his neck and chest as Jin watched them traveling on his body. “And I love it when you act like this.” He added with a smirk, referring to the fact that Koki was involuntarily backing away at his every touch.

“Bastard.” Koki hissed and his hands were fisted against the mattress as he tried to ignore Jin’s fingers, the ghostly and teasing touch that made his insides coil. “And I’m not scared of you.” Koki barred his teeth at Jin with a threatening look, showing to the other that he was willing to go through it all without fighting back, though God knew how much he wanted to do so. “I’m more concerned I might puke.” His lips curled sardonically, feeling his skin tingle in some places as Jin touched it again.

“All the better if you’re not scared.” Jin replied simply, moving more on the bed and closer to Koki. “I’m not really pleased to do all the work,” he then continued, his fingers now passing over the boy’s nipples and pressing a little on them, going over them to circle one at a time and then lightly pull on them, “but I think I’m going to enjoy it this time.” He smirked and raised his other hand to touch Koki, directly guiding it towards the slightly open zipper of the other one and pulling it down a little more. “I love your body trembling because you don’t know what I’m going to do to you.” Jin added with a mean and teasing voice, pulling on Koki’s pants just enough for his boxers to be seen.

Koki’s breath caught in his throat and he let it out with a hiss, closing his eyes for a moment, his body confused and reacting to Jin’s treatments against his judgment. “You’re fucked up, you know?” Koki opened his eyes, staring at Jin with outmost disgust and hate. “I only do this because of Kazuya.” He continued, his chest rising fast as Jin’s hands were teasing him around his waist, his boxers, long fingers touching his skin, now so sensitive out of two reasons - not wanting to be touched, but unable to stop the feeling of arousal in his body.

“Hmm…” Jin mused upon Koki’s words, seeming truly interested in their meaning. He suddenly climbed into the bed, moving on the other side of the boy and parting his legs just enough for Jin to sneak his knee between them as he pushed Koki to lie down. “I wonder…” he started with a thoughtful voice, seeming to be still thinking at something as he leaned over the other one and gently bit his ear lob, his right hand supporting his body on the bed while the left one was still drawing circles on Koki’s body, going up to his neck to caress the sensitive skin and then down to his boxers, slipping inside them more and more each time his hand climbed down his body. “I wonder why are you willing to do so much for Kazuya.” Jin whispered into Koki’s ear and bit it again as his hand finally touched his member.

Koki squirmed at the touch and tried to pull away a bit, but he was held on the spot, not only by Jin but also by his will power. He had to do this, he could do this. He tried to breathe a little more normally, to control more of his reactions though it was kind of impossible to suppress the shivers, the slight tremble of his body and the sudden yearn to be touched more. “Because I care about him unlike you.” Koki said with a harsh voice, moving his head so that Jin wouldn’t bite on his ear again. Too bad that now he was staring right in Jin’s face. “I want him happy, away from your world where he’ll only feel alone and scared. I want him to smile because he deserves so. He doesn’t need the likes of you after his mother.” Koki continued and you could see the burning desire to accomplish what he had just said. “I want him to know that it’s alright to trust people and that not everyone will betray him.” He then added and there was a shadow of sadness as he just said this.

“That you won’t betray him?” Jin laughed and you could hear the mock from his voice. Their eyes met and a smirk appeared on his lips as Jin leaned down to briefly kiss Koki’s, his hand moving up and down on the younger’s length though the movements were a little restrained as the boxers still kept Jin from releasing it. “Some might say that you’re in love with him.” Jin breathed the words against Koki’s lips, retrieving his left hand and now pushing on the pants along with the boy’s underwear.

Koki held his breath as Jin slowly undressed him completely and tried to steady his heartbeat and to suppress the sudden urge to push him away. “I’m not in love with Kazuya.” he exhaled slowly as he uttered the words, hating the proximity his and Jin’s lips were in. “If I had been, then I would have told him a long time ago. I don’t run away from my feelings.” He continued and his hands fisted the sheets under him. “Like right now when I feel so repulsed of you and your touches.” He added and almost jolted when Jin scratched his inner thigh.

“Hmm…” Jin seemed to laugh under his breath, leaning down to catch Koki’s lips into another short kiss and then going down on his neck and chest while his hands continued to undress Koki until he was finally able to throw his clothes on the floor, Jin’s lips now teasing his belly and still looking at the other one challengingly. “I think you’re rather excited about this.” He said, going up again and kissing and sucking gently on Koki’s skin, both of his hands now roaming over his body. “I think that you like this because you want to know how it is to have sex with Kazuya.” He continued and his teeth teasingly bit on Koki’s right nipple, catching his left one between his index and middle fingers and moving them around it. “I think that even you aren’t aware of your feelings for Kazuya, but deep inside you know that you want to fuck him like I’m going to fuck you.” Jin continued to speak, freeing his nipples and letting his lips go the Koki’s ones and kiss him while his hand went lower, playfully touching his forming erection, the proof of what he was saying.

Koki bit back a moan as Jin’s tongue forced its way past his lips, meeting his and challenging it with ruthless thrusts. The younger boy arched a little under Jin’s touch, crumpling the sheets even more in his fists, hating the way that he was letting a man touch and kiss him like this. And Jin kept taking advantage of his obedience, was humiliating him once more and at this maddening thought, Koki couldn’t help but bite on Jin’s lip, cutting it a little. There was anger and lust in his black eyes as he looked into the other one’s eyes.

“I don’t long for Kazuya in that way.” He growled, hating Jin for how he was tainting his and Kazuya’s friendship. “I’m not sick like you.” Koki smirked disgusted at Jin. “What I feel for Kazuya, you’ll never know because you can’t understand such feelings. You don’t know how to care for someone, for their happiness.” He continued and his breath suddenly got a little heavy as Jin’s long fingers curled and uncurled around his shaft. “I am his friend, no matter how much it irks you.” Koki spat the words, turning his head in the pillow, to hide his shameful expression of lust.

“You’re pitiful.” Jin spat out with disgust, his voice sounding more hateful than Koki’s as he trapped the boy’s chin between his two fingers and forced him to look back into his eyes. “You’re willing to go this far for him and you don’t even know why.” He said and didn’t wait for an answer as he let his tongue enter Koki’s mouth for the second time, going deep and exploring each inch of it even if the kiss lasted a few seconds. “You’re so stupid and it makes me mad to see Kazuya willing to do the same for you.” He confessed with anger in his voice, biting on Koki’s chin and then kissing the spot as the hand on the boy’s crotch started to move up and down faster and faster.

Jin suddenly stopped and released Koki, retrieving his knee from his legs only to settle his whole body between them, Jin now topping Koki and keeping his legs spread and bent. “Tell me, did you ever jerk off to Kazuya’s image in your mind?” he asked, his hands now back on Koki’s body and teasing his chest while his lips left a wet trace on his skin. “Did you ever image doing this with him?” he continued, letting his lips go lower, now his right hand back on his shaft while the other one was busy folding his balls. “Don’t you want to know how it is to be deep buried inside of him?” Jin whispered at Koki’s ear with a low and husky voice, laughing a little at the other one’s reaction as his index finger brushed over the boy’s rear.

No, Koki screamed inside his head, but there weren’t words that came out of his lips, but loud moans, half suppressed by the still stubborn Koki who wasn’t at all willing to let Jin believe he was offering total pleasure. But Koki had lost the battle because his body was arching, writhing under Jin’s, trying to pull away from Jin’s hands but still wanting them on him.

“No…” He spluttered out, trying to focus on the words rather than on his desire. “I’ve never thought of Kazuya like that…” he added, this time bringing his hands to grip Jin’s shoulders, his fingers digging painfully through the material to reach the skin. “I’m not you.” Koki breathed out, his eyes fogged with desire and disdain.

“No, you’re not me.” Jin laughed again with the same mocking tone. “If you were,” he continued, lowering his head and kissing his lips, licking and sucking on them with gentleness, totally different from how his hands were moving, “you’d take what you want.” He stated and inserted his index finger into Koki’s hole without preparing him for it, entering his entire finger and enjoying the sounds of pain that escaped Koki’s lips.

The younger boy tried to get away from the source that was hurting him, pulled his whole body up, moaning in sudden pain. What the hell was he doing?! Did Kazuya feel this way every time he was with Jin? Or did he get used with the pain? No, he didn’t want to think, he didn’t want to know, he just wanted to get away from Jin. “Let -” he never finished what he was about to say because a third voice - a feeble, but familiar one - pierced through him.

“Koki.” Kazuya was leaning against the door frame, still looking pale, but no one could tell if it was because of the drugs or the sight he was witnessing in that moment.

“No.” Koki muttered and pushed Jin away from him, his eyes staring into Kazuya’s distrustful ones.

“Welcome to the party.” Jin said with a disgusted voice, low enough to make him believe that he had been the only one to hear him as he backed away from Koki and settled on the bed, stretching his body and lying down like he had no care in the world.

Kazuya felt too weak to even speak to Jin, to be angry at him for what he was doing to his friend, but he had to. “Jin, leave me alone with Koki.” He asked the older one, locking his eyes with his, trying to understand why would Jin do such a thing. Meanwhile, Koki tried to get dressed as soon as possible, feeling the worst and the most stupid in the same time.

Jin raised an inquiring eyebrow, wondering if the younger really thought he was so stupid. “Sorry, have to do better than this.” He simply shrugged, not moving an inch and just smiling innocently.

Kazuya closed his eyes and heaved a breath. He wasn’t in the mood or strength to argue back with Jin. “Koki, come with me.” He said and the other hurried to do so.

“If you’re leaving this room with him, he isn’t going to leave the apartment alive.” Jin threatened with the same light tone, acting like he had said the most normal thing in the world. But he was sick of it. He was sick of Kazuya’s attitude and he was sick of seeing him preferring anyone else than him. If Kazuya really wanted to see the real Jin, then he will be more than glad to show him.

Kazuya stopped Koki on his side as he looked again at Jin. He really didn’t need this now, but it seemed that Jin wasn’t going to listen to him at all this time. He sighed and then turned to Koki, though there wasn’t the usual smile and gentleness he had when he saw his friend. And Koki noticed this too clearly, paining his heart. “Go in my bedroom, I have to talk with Jin.” He said to him and even if for a second, Koki seemed to rebel against the idea, he accepted it. “Don’t go home, I want to talk with you too.” He warned Koki and the other one nodded as he left the two lovers behind. Kazuya entered more in the room, closing the door behind him, and he started heading for where Jin was, even though his legs were kind of shaky. That damn drug!

He stopped midway and took support on a chair in his right as he suddenly felt like throwing up. Though he wasn’t sure it was because of his ill state or because of seeing his friend and lover in such compromising positions. Kazuya took a deep breath again and looked at Jin, not daring to move from his spot, not trusting his legs to carry him anymore. “Why did you do that?” He asked with the same feeble voice he had called out for Koki.

“He offered.” Jin shrugged, his eyes finding Kazuya’s and facing them. He raised a little from the bed, just enough for him to get to his lover and pull on his hands, the boy landing on his lap and finding himself trapped by Jin’s hands on his waist. “I couldn’t say no, could I?” he added with a mocking and teasing tone in the same time, though it sounded more like angry and upset.

Kazuya closed his eyes, he didn’t fight Jin off - he didn’t have the strength to do so, even if he wanted to. “In exchange of what?” He asked, knowing Koki wouldn’t just do so because he wanted an adventure with a man, especially with his friend’s lover. He was shaking slightly in Jin’s arms, such were the after effects of the drug.

“He seemed to think that you’re not happy with me…” Jin whined and tightened his hold on the boy’s body, resting his head on his shoulder. “And he said that he wants to free you from me.” He added, the tone he used clearly suggesting that he blamed Kazuya for this because Koki wouldn’t have done this by himself. Kazuya must have told him something.

“And you had to be stupid and hurt him like that.” Kazuya said on the same feeble and calm voice. Really, from where came all of this calm? Probably the drug or he was still shocked at what he had seen. “Why did you really do that?” He then asked, a part of him not wanting to believe that Jin would deliberately cheat on him and especially with his friend.

“It’s your fault.” Jin muttered at the boy’s neck, speaking so low that Kazuya wouldn’t have heard him if they weren’t practically glued to each other. He felt Kazuya move awkwardly in his arms and Jin knew that he couldn’t understand only from this so he decided to give more hints about what he was talking about and why he was so angry with him. “You know, I thought it was weird that you suddenly insisted so much for me to take Pi with me and not leave you two alone.” He said and raised his head, starting to press kisses on Kazuya’s neck and inhaling his sweet scent as his lips teased his skin.

A bell rang inside his brain, but Kazuya felt a little too dizzy to take that into account. “Because I broke into your drawer, you decide to go and fuck my friend.” He said weakly, though one could sense the mockery in his voice. “I’m amazed.” His hand lazily crawled in Jin’s hair, gripping it with the last bit of strength he had.

Jin chuckled, his breath tickling the younger’s skin as he was still busy kissing every inch of Kazuya he could reach. “Don’t flatter yourself, I let you open that drawer and read all its content.” He confessed with an amused tone, letting his hands sneak under Kazuya’s shirt and teasingly touching his body. “I didn’t leave anywhere, I just waited for you to make your move as I knew you would.” He said and laughed again, opening the buttons from the younger’s shirt and letting it slide on his shoulders. “But this isn’t the reason I’m doing this.” He then added and backed a little to look into Kazuya’s eyes. “Don’t you know?” Jin inquired with an innocent tone, tilting his head a little and battling his eyelashes in a cute way that screamed danger.

And inside Kazuya’s mind something clicked. No, it couldn’t be, could it? “I don’t know.” He replied, though there was a slight rush to his voice. He shifted in Jin’s arms and made an attempt to take his shirt back, but Jin didn’t let him and instead brought him closer, their lips almost touching while his hands roamed on the boy’s back, keeping him there and not letting him escape.

“Do you doubt my talents?” Jin asked with a smirk on his voice, making Kazuya even more confused than he already was. “You’re not bad, you’re quite tempting.” He then continued with a fake voice, seeming like he was trying to imitate someone. “Kiss it and it will heal. That…” at this point Jin stopped and kissed Kazuya’s lips, then his cheek and continued until he got to his ear, “if you have the courage to deal with the consequences later.” He ended up what seemed to be his little speech with a voice totally different from the seductive and taunting one that he had started with, his hand which had been playing with Kazuya’s nipples now being on his neck, almost strangling him.

Kazuya brought his own hand to Jin’s, trying to make it release his neck. “Did Pi tell you?” He managed to whisper, looking at Jin through half lidded eyes. Oh, God, he was screwed now. Was Pi even alive anymore?

But Jin didn’t answer as his attention seemed to have been caught by something else. His eyes darkened and in a fit of fury, he pressed hard on Kazuya’s neck, making him fall from his lap and land on the bed, his hand still placed on his Adam’s apple and suffocating him. Jin followed him and covered his body with his own, leaning close so that there were only a few inches between their faces. “Where were you?” he asked with a dark and low tone, showing that he wasn’t in the mood for any joke. “Who did this to you?” he raised his voice, yelling as he ripped Kazuya’s shirt to let the mark from his shoulder be seen better.

That wasn’t there when they had had that fight. This must have happened after Kazuya had run away from him. Did he… whore himself for drugs again? Had someone dared to give him drugs in exchange of sex?!

Kazuya opened his mouth for air, his eyes falling on the bruise - or better said hickey - that bastard had done to him. “Someone knowing you lured me away and drugged me.” He coughed, his fingers curled around Jin’s wrist while his eyes were accusing and there was disappointment written on his face. “Did you think I fucked with someone else?” He asked with a derisive tone. “I might have kissed Pi, but I wouldn’t have let another man have his way with me.” Kazuya said through gritted teeth, some of his lost strength coming back to him as he understood what was going inside Jin’s head. “Get off, I’m still recovering. Or do you want to kill me?” He arched an eyebrow, his words dripping with cold fury.

“And why should I believe you?” Jin asked, his voice sounding cold as ice and even more threatening than before. “You were the one to lure Pi, you were the one to invite him.” He then accused, not really caring in that moment if he was leaving Kazuya without breath or not. He just wanted answers. “And who the heck lured you?!” he screamed, now the fact that he was pissed off being more than obvious. “Who was the one that drugged you?!” he wanted to know, his grip on Kazuya’s neck tightening even more.

Kazuya closed his eyes, gasping more and more for air, not having a way how to talk, to make Jin back away and listen to him. And the fact that this idiot was strangling him for something this time he didn’t ask for was kind of painful. But on a desperate moment, Kazuya lifted his knee and with the last of his strength, he kicked Jin between his legs, this way releasing his neck and Kazuya being now able to breathe again. “You… idiot.” He said through rasp breathing, his hand around his neck, massaging the bruised skin. “If you want answers, don’t strangle the person you’re asking.” He said and pulled himself away from Jin, attentive at every move of his and out of the corner of his mind, he wondered if Koki had heard all of this.

“Then start talking.” Jin ordered immediately with a cold voice and piercing eyes as he looked again into Kazuya’s brown orbs, his patience already run out.

Kazuya looked at Jin, closing his eyes a bit and trying to fight the shut down in his body. Jin was accusing him and he couldn’t defend himself right now, because he was feeling ill because of some damn drugs. He looked at Jin and the image of him blurred for a minute. He knew what was following next. “Okay, just let me faint first.” Kazuya muttered to Jin and almost toppled out of the bed if Jin hadn’t caught him on time.

“You got to be kidding me.”

*

His body felt heavy and his mind was spinning round and round, making him groan in pain and there it was - those thousands needles piercing through his body, penetrating his skin and infecting him with the need of something powerful, something that would erase the pain. He was familiar with this need, he had felt it before, but he had given it up. And once more it came back to him, asking for its rights, making his body ache and convulse in despair.

Kazuya opened his eyes wide and stared at the ceiling of his bedroom. He was home - why? Then, he caught a movement and he looked to his left, finding Jin staring right back at him. What was doing Jin there and why was he in bed? Kazuya brought his hand to his forehead to find a wet cloth covering it. He frowned and looked again at Jin.

“Give me some water, please.” He asked and wondered why his body felt so weak and why it also felt like burning.

Jin didn’t say anything and just stood up from his chair, going to the table and bringing back to the bed a glass of water which he handed to Kazuya without a word. The younger thanked and took the glass, drinking insatiable from it. He closed his eyes and then he felt the slight tremble of his hand. He looked at the glass shaking and everything came back to him. The meeting with Jun, the drug he was forced to take, Koki and Jin together, Jin finding out about Pi and him - everything hit him with the speed of a train. Kazuya stopped the trembling of the glass with his other hand. He looked at Jin with glazed eyes.

“I didn’t drug myself.” Kazuya said with a voice that asked to be believed.

“That’s the least of my concerns.” Jin simply replied, taking the glass from Kazuya’s hands and standing up to pour another for himself. “I want to know what happened from the beginning.” He then demanded, not leaving Kazuya time to answer at his first comment.

Kazuya bit on his lower lip, feeling how anger rose in him like a flame eating on its wood. Jin didn’t believe him. “For what use?” He said with a scoff, lacing his fingers together, to stop them from further trembling. “To tell me that you don’t believe me and that I’m lying?” He asked and shook his head. “No, believe what you want. I won’t tell you anything.” Kazuya said with a stubborn voice, sliding back under the covers and turning his back on Jin.

“Kazuya, I’m giving you the chance to explain yourself.” Jin pointed out, feeling how a headache was starting to make its presence. This was the first time that he was doing this and he had thought that it would earn him a bit more of appreciation, but instead he was rewarded with this. He had had a lot of time to deal with what had happened, after he had found out about Kazuya and Pi, on the road to the younger one’s apartment and the time he had spent waiting for him to wake up. He was rather calm now and even fine with it if you compared it with the last time something like this had happened and Jin had demanded explanations but hadn’t waited for them. “So don’t blow it.” He added with a tired voice, turning to look at Kazuya and really hoping that he won’t be forced to drag the words out of him. This wouldn’t end up good.

“After you tried to strangle me… yeah, what a chance.” Kazuya muttered from his side, hating that he had done this after he had tried to have his way with Koki. He’ll never forget the sight of Koki and him together. “You know what?” Kazuya suddenly bolted up, turning and looking at Jin angry and disappointed in the same time. “You should have continued strangling me even after I fainted! This way, we could have finished everything better. No more problems of distrust, no more pain of being cheated on, OVER!” He continued, knowing that he was being a bit hysterical right now, but hell - everything just broke around him! He hadn’t succeeded to make Jin give up on his fucked up world, he had been drugged, his friend had almost got fucked up by his boyfriend, what the fuck! It would have been better if Jin would just make him disappear forever, then everything would simply end. No more pain.

Jin just looked at Kazuya, not reacting at all for a few seconds and just watching him, like he was thinking at something deep. “Okay.” He simply said with a light and calm voice, keeping his face straight as he approached the bed. “If you want me to kill you, then that’s fine.” He said, settling his knee on the bed and lifting his hand towards Kazuya’s neck once again, though this time it seemed like it was in slow motion. “At least, this way I won’t have to worry all the time if you cheat on me or not.”

Kazuya lifted his chin defiantly and just let Jin do what he wanted. “Perfect. This way I won’t worry either whether you’d believe me or not if someone comes up to me, tricking me with information about you and then trying to have his way with me. I won’t have to worry if you’d fuck my friend in my house. I won’t worry about you killing people or you being killed.” Kazuya stopped and took one last breath. “So, kill me.”

This time, Jin couldn’t control himself anymore. His vision darkened and he only felt the anger pumping his veins as he lifted his hand and hit Kazuya on his cheek with the back of his palm. “How could I believe you when you kiss my best friend?” he said through gritted teeth, barely containing his anger. “How could I trust you if I find hickeys on your body? How can I have faith in you when you always do things behind my back?!”

Kazuya put a hand to his burning cheek and then saw the small red drops on his pillow. Out of impulse and rage, he hit Jin back, just as he was licking his own blood from the corner of his mouth. “So what?! I kissed Pi, big deal! You almost fucked Koki! And don’t tell me you weren’t enjoying it!” Kazuya retorted, his chest rising fast. “And why the heck do you think I do things behind your back?! Tell me, Jin, why do I do them?!!” He shouted the last words, ready for whatever Jin had in store for him. He was almost sure that he would be hit again, but hell, he’ll hit back.

“Because you’re an idiot!” Jin snapped, catching Kazuya’s arms into one of his hands and pushing the boy on the bed, topping him and keeping him trapped with his body. “Because the only thing you know to do is to drive me crazy! Because you prefer to ask others about me than to try and insist to find out the truth from me!! Because you’d rather fuck someone else than to come to me to ask for help!!” he poured out all of his feelings and frustrations and anger that he felt each time Kazuya did something like this.

Kazuya struggled against Jin’s hold, but in vane. “And when the hell did I ever ask for help?!” He laughed, moving some more, though too little. “And I ask others because when I ask you, you either go amnesiac for the time being, either you shut me up with sex! So tell me, Mister Smart Brains, how should I insist in asking you about you to really have a result?” He snarled, also letting out a sound of frustration as Jin was once more stronger than him. “And just for the record, I haven’t fucked with anyone else since I’ve been with you. But stick to your ideas, smartass.”

“No, you just go around kissing others.” Jin laughed mockingly and released Kazuya’s hands only as he took off his shirt and threw it on the floor, his hands immediately trapping the boy again. “See this?” he then asked, pointing to the K carved next to his heart. “You did this because I kissed Ueda, remember?” he said but didn’t give the younger the occasion to answer and just continued. “Now you kissed Pi and let another man touch you, a man which name I bet you don’t even know.” He accused. “Should I carve my name on your entire body to make you remember whom do you belong to?”

Kazuya’s eyes flared up. “You almost slept with Koki.” He said with a low voice. “I’d take that as even, though it shouldn’t seeing that I didn’t get that far with Pi.” He added, not mentioning the other man, whose name - yes, indeed - he didn’t know.

“You know as well as I do that I wouldn’t have done that if you hadn’t been messing around with my best friend.” Jin replied, his tone a little calmer now, though he was still boiling with anger. “It’s eye for an eye after all.”

“You see, I don’t know you, Jin.” Kazuya lifted himself a little, just to be closer to him. “I don’t know the real you at all.” He whispered the words before he let himself fall back on the bed. “What I’ve heard lately, I think what you showed me it’s just the tip of the iceberg. Seeing that you slept with your brother, what would have stopped you from sleeping with my friend?” He laughed and it was bitter, oh, so damn bitter. “Me?” Kazuya asked mockingly. “I doubt it.”

“Hayato was different.” Jin whispered, his eyes darting from Kazuya’s for a moment. “And yes, I would have slept with Koki if you hadn’t appeared then.” He confessed, locking his eyes again with the boy’s. “I would have done much more than this if you had let Pi touch you more than he did and if you hadn’t rejected him in the end.”

Kazuya grimaced. “Get off me.” He said with disgust. “I don’t want you near me anymore.” He added, feeling hurt and disappointed by Jin’s actions and thinking that if he hadn’t been woken up by Koki’s cry of pain, he wouldn’t have been able to stop his friend from being fucked by his lover. Damn, it hurt.

“Oh, so you don’t want me anymore?” Jin laughed mockingly, not showing any intentions to do what Kazuya had said. “Then who would you prefer?” he asked with an inquiring and curious tone. “Definitely it has to be someone who wouldn’t notice you cheating on him all the time.” Jin mused, a frown appearing on his face.

Kazuya’s face reddened and all of a sudden he started to move frantically, wanting to get Jin off of him. “You’re an idiot! I hate you! Get off! Leave me! Kill me! Just…” He said all these and then as suddenly as he had started, he stopped, breathing heavily and looking at the wall on his left. “Why don’t you kill me just like you kill the others?” He whispered, still not facing his lover. He didn’t have the strength anymore. Jin was drying him alive.

Something snapped in Jin when he saw Kazuya stopping his struggle and he felt like he couldn’t control his anger anymore as he grabbed the boy’s chin, forcing him to turn his head and meet his lips into a demanding kiss. He kept his eyes open and looked at Kazuya while his tongue tried to go deeper into his mouth, his teeth biting on his lips and being anything but kind. “You really drive me out of my mind.” Jin said as he let their lips part for a second, capturing them back in the next moment and starting another battle, a little more composed but with still the same wrath and force and raw power.

Kazuya tried at first to fight Jin off, but in the end he just gave in. How couldn’t he when even in despair, he still yearned for Jin? And if he was driving Jin out of his mind, then Kazuya was the same. Because his lover always managed to make him forget everything he was, everything he believed in, he made him conscious of only one thing or, better said, person - Jin.

So he kissed back, not letting Jin conquer him all, though he had long done that. And there was anger on his lips too, there was pain and love, all mixed together in the kiss they were sharing. There was also need, raw desire beneath all this and both of them could sense it, could feel it because this was how everything had started between them.

Kazuya drew back a little, to break the kiss even if Jin was still holding him down, not letting him move freely. “You shouldn’t be kissing me.” He said with a derisive tone. “Better go to Koki while I’ll have my way with Pi.” He then added, not knowing exactly why he was doing this, but when he had ever known what to do when it came to Jin?

“I would be crazy to go to someone else when I have you so yearning for me.” Jin laughed and kissed Kazuya once more, again a little slower as he released the boy from his arms and instead let them travel on the younger one’s body, placing teasing touches on his chest and not wasting any time to get to his pants, trying to sneak in.

After all, anger always made him horny.

Kazuya tried not to let Jin have his way again and despite his efforts of pushing him away, he ended up pulling him closer. “I hate you.” Kazuya hissed as he gripped Jin’s shoulders, his eyes closed because of the other one’s naughty hands. “You never listen to me, you never care about my opinion… I really hate you.” He continued, biting his lower lip as Jin’s fingers slipped deeper in his pants. “You only listen to me when in bed. Bastard.” Kazuya cussed and his body arched a little.

“But you love what I do to you in bed.” Jin pointed out with a devious smirk, his patience already having run out and his hands gripping on the boy’s pants and underwear, bringing them down with one swift move. “You love me when I fuck you with my fingers.” He added, his tone small as a whisper and raw as a wild animal as he proceeded to do what he said, inserting two fingers into Kazuya’s hole. The younger hadn’t expected such a sudden intrusion, so he let out a loud and low sound, somewhere between moaning and screaming just as his hands fisted into Jin’s hair, gripping it tightly in the wake of desire. “You love me when I make you scream out loud my name.” the older one chuckled meanly and pecked his lips again, traveling along his chin, going down on his neck and meeting his nipples into a playful bite.

“You’re missing the point, Jin.” Kazuya breathed out, parting his legs to offer Jin more space, as his whole body was shaking in expectance. “Totally missing it.” He added and he couldn’t help but to think that his own words sounded perverted. Damn you, Jin.

“I don’t think I’m missing anything.” Jin replied with a naughty tone, his fingers finally finding the point which made Kazuya cry out his name and continuing to hit his prostate with sharp and fast moves. “Or maybe you need something bigger.” He continued with a superior and taunting voice, whispering the words against his mouth and nibbling on his lips as he swallowed Kazuya’s moans, feeling himself getting harder too at the sound of his lover’s voice.

“Maybe we should find out…” Kazuya slurred, his breath catching in his throat each time Jin pushed into him faster and harder. “…who’s right.” He then added and his legs flung around Jin’s waist, the muscles around Jin’s fingers tightening and making their intrusion a little difficult. “Find the point again.” Kazuya provoked into Jin’s mouth just as his tongue slithered out and playfully touched Jin’s.

“Oh, no, what should I do now?” Jin complained with a fake voice, enjoying the whimper that left Kazuya’s lips as he pulled back his fingers and brushed his cock along the boy’s entrance. “Though I never had a problem with that.” He added, catching Kazuya’s lips into another raw and demanding kiss as he guided his shaft to the younger’s hole and introduced his whole length inside.

Kazuya groaned in pleasure, feeling Jin inside of him, his legs tightening around his waist just as his hands pulled him closer, deepening their kiss. He moved his hips a little, wanting Jin to start moving too - he needed him too much right now. “God.” Kazuya breathed next to Jin’s lips feeling the older one penetrating him deeper and deeper, over and over again. “You bastard.” He cursed, burying his face in the crook of Jin’s neck, biting on the skin a bit painfully, thrusting his hips just as Jin kept on pounding down on him.

“God, bastard, whatever you want to call me.” Jin laughed teasingly. “Though I prefer the former.” He added, fastening his moves and then suddenly slowing down, moving at a maddening pace. “Let’s see which one it is.” Jin suggested with a provocative tone, clearly showing that he had something in mind. He didn’t give Kazuya the chance to reply and put his hands on the boy’s waist, turning them around in bed and bringing Kazuya on top of him, not being able to stop the loud groan from escaping his lips when his shaft went deeper into Kazuya and hit his prostate powerfully.

Kazuya gripped the sheets around them, letting his head back down, sounds of pleasure escaping his throat, just as he continued moving back and forth, riding on the waves of approaching climax. “Neither one is.” He breathed out, looking at Jin through half lidded eyes. “It’s plainly clear that you’re the devil.” Kazuya’s body quivered in pleasure, pushing deeper on Jin, feeling him sliding in him more and more. “De-devil…” He stuttered in moaning, trashing himself above Jin, pain and pleasure so tightly glued together.

“Good enough for me.” Jin smirked and put his hands on Kazuya’s waist, guiding him to move faster as Jin thrust his hips up and down, slamming into the boy’s hole and letting only their moans and groans of pleasure be heard in the room. He closed his eyes when he felt a sudden clench on his shaft and released his seed inside of Kazuya, coming with a loud groan and still moving the boy on top of him as both of them rode their orgasm until the last drop of cum was released. Kazuya fell on him and Jin hugged him into his arms, placing a sweet kiss on the boy’s temple as they tried to regain their breaths.

Kazuya felt now even weaker than he had been because of the drug and he could only chuckle to himself, thinking that being with Jin was more addictive than a drug. “Jin…” he slurred, as he listened to his lover’s heartbeats. “Let’s leave from here.”

Jin stiffened a little, this being the last thing he had expected to hear from Kazuya, even more after all that had happened between them in the last few hours. He took a moment to reply, but decided that it was best to ignore Kazuya’s request for now and to settle on what was more important. “Tell me everything that happened.” He asked instead, thinking that he had the right to know if Kazuya wanted him to trust him again.

The younger boy sighed. “After I left you, I bumped into this guy that seemed to know you. And he probably did because he told me how your sexual activity started.” At this he paused and his arms tightened a little around Jin’s chest. “You should have told me that you were forced at ten… just like me.” He said gently, though it was clear the slight accuse. “I would have understood.” Kazuya let out another sigh, closing his eyes and recalling what he had felt - and was still feeling - when he had heard that Jin had been forced to have a sexual life since young age.

“I haven’t been forced.” Jin replied with a sigh. “It was what I wanted and I knew that it would have to come at some point. I accepted it.” He confessed and pressed his lips against Kazuya’s temple for the second time. “What else did he tell you?” he quickly changed the subject, wanting to know how much of his life had Kazuya found out without him allowing it.

The hope that Kazuya clung to crushed together with Jin’s words. He had hoped that Jun had lied to him, even if that would make him look like a real fool. “He told me that Pi’s father obliged you into having sexual relations with his son.” He said and lifted his head a little, just to look at Jin. “And this time you didn’t want it.”

“Well, it’s not like it was a bliss to have to kiss Pi.” Jin laughed a little, remembering that they had tried to pretend at first, making loud noises and moaning to convince anyone that could he hearing them. He had to admit that he was still a tad naïve back then, not even thinking that Aoki might be recording their every move. “And it was weird to do stuff with him, so we decided to fake everything. But we got caught and then we just did it. He didn’t force us to, he just said that we need to do this if we want to survive in this world.” He confessed, thinking that it had been more of a threat and that Jin had been aware of this from the beginning. But he hadn’t wanted to go back to his miserable life so he had accepted it and hadn’t fought it. After all, it hadn’t been worse than living with his parents and not being strong enough to crush them.

“You’re stupid.” Kazuya rested his head again on Jin’s chest, understanding and not understanding in the same time the decisions Jin had taken upon his life. “You should have chosen to live free, not in that world. You should have chosen to be a child.” He added and sighed once more, thinking that if it had been him, he would have definitely chosen this path and not the one Jin had taken.

“I did what I had to do for me to survive.” Jin clarified, regretting none of his decisions. After all, it had brought him what he had wanted - the power to live free and without anyone to bother him; instead, he was the one that people went to when they needed help. “I wasn’t free from the beginning so this was the only course I could take.” He added, his voice a little lower and sounding like he was saying this for himself. “Anyway, what else happened?” he then asked, determined to change the subject from his past. “Why were you drugged and who was that man? What did he look like?” he asked, thinking that even if Kazuya didn’t know his name, he could still describe him. And then Jin would know.

And at this part, Kazuya frowned a bit, not knowing if it was correct to tell what indeed had happened with Jun. “Well… for this information about you, he asked me to do something for him.” He said and felt his heart beat faster, not wanting to tell Jin that he had accepted to kiss another man. “So I did, but when I wanted to leave… he made me swallow a pill. After that, everything turned a bit hazy - since I haven’t been taking drugs for a while, they took effect rather quickly. I think that’s when he made that mark on me.” He talked really fast, like he wanted to get through it all once and for all. “But I remember him saying that you couldn’t find me where we were so he could take advantage of me… so that’s when I acted like he wanted me to before I kicked him and ran. Koki found me later and I almost kicked him too…” Kazuya’s voice subsided, recalling the intimate moments between Jin and Koki.

“And what did he want you to do for him?” Jin asked, not missing the fact that Kazuya had started talking faster when he had gotten to this part and being really interested to know what could one of his men - because it had to be one of them - want from his lover. This could help Jin determined who was the son of a bitch who had drugged Kazuya - and Jin refused for the moment to think how exactly he had forced Kazuya to take that pill or pills, how many of them had been.

Kazuya kept silent, not wanting to tell Jin that he had had to kiss Jun. He didn’t want to know how Jin will react upon knowing this. “It’s not important...” He muttered and started drawing circles on Jin’s skin. “So, are we going to leave from here?” He then asked, his voice a little more cheerful.

Jin sighed, obviously not satisfied that Kazuya was avoiding his question, his suspicions that something that he wouldn’t like had happened growing. Still, he chose to accept this time too, thinking that he’ll know eventually as someone must have seen Kazuya together with that mysterious man. “And Pi?” he asked, deciding that if Kazuya could avoid his questions, then he could do it too. Besides, his were much important than the younger’s.

At this question, Kazuya kind of tensed. “He told me about you too and even if at first I didn’t plan on kissing him… it sort of happened. I never thought he’d kiss me, I thought he was afraid of you to go this far.” He said with a low voice, not knowing how to make it sound less guilty than he was already. “But… how did you find out? Did he tell you?” Kazuya glanced at Jin, wondering once more if Pi had been this stupid to tell Jin or to brag to others.

“Tell me why you did it.” Jin demanded to know, once again ignoring Kazuya’s question. He knew perfectly well what had happened between them, he didn’t need an explanation of that. What he really wanted to know was why. Why would Kazuya kiss him back? Why would he taunt Pi like that and make him want more to fuck him? Kazuya should have already known that Pi wanted to get in his pants as he had stated clearly from the first time they had met. “Why you answered to his kiss?” Jin asked as he raised himself a little from the bed, leaning his back to the wall and pulling Kazuya in his arms again as their eyes locked.

“I don’t know.” The younger one replied truthfully, because he couldn’t find a reason why he had wanted to kiss Pi. “I might have as well done it unconsciously because he said he had slept with you too and that you liked his skills in bed better. I think I was jealous and wanted to pay you back, to show him that I was better.” He continued and the more he said, the more it made sense to him. He had never really thought about this back then, but now… he really had been jealous.

“So now I should go and kiss whoever had fucked you too if they say that you prefer their skills in bed than mine?” Jin raised an inquiring eyebrow, thinking that he didn’t need that much to get jealous and would do so much more if one of those jerks dared to say something like this to him. “Should I want to pay you back for all those men you have slept with before meeting me?” Jin asked with a voice calmer than he had expected.

“Hey, the men I slept with aren’t my best friends.” Kazuya pointed out, narrowing his eyes at Jin. “At least it was a kiss, not almost fucking like you did with Koki.” He then accused, looking away from Jin as he started to poke him in the ribs with his index.

“Well, he offered, I was pissed off and jealous, so I just went with the flow.” Jin shrugged innocently, catching Kazuya’s finger and bringing his hand to his lips to kiss each one of his fingers. “Though I can’t say that this happened with you too.”

Kazuya brushed off the last remark of Jin’s. “Are we going to leave from here?” He asked, looking at Jin this time and hoping that the older one would not ignore his question a fourth time too.

“And go where, Kazuya?” Jin sighed, starting to get really tired of this. “There’s nowhere we can go, nowhere we can run to.” He said, hoping that the younger will understand that this was simply impossible. “This is my life and if you’ve learned enough about my past too, then you should know that I can’t get away from it.”

“You don’t even want to try.” Kazuya accused, standing up a little. “You don’t even want to see that there might be another path in your life. You’re too tied to this world and eventually… it will ruin you.” He continued and brought his hand to Jin’s cheek. “It will ruin us.”

“It won’t.” Jin argued with Kazuya. “This world is the one that had brought you to me.” He said, circling Kazuya’s waist with his hands and bringing him a little closer. “This is where we met, this is what allowed us to become like this. This is what made us become lovers.” Jin said, his tone softening towards the end.

“And how much time will it take until this world separates us?” Kazuya asked and his voice was bitter. “The mark that guy left on me… he wanted you to see it. Jin, they will try to get to you in one way or another. And I’m one way.” He sighed and slid down Jin’s body, settling once more in his arms. “Letting aside what happened with Pi, if other people try to sway me and drug me again… would you believe that I was really drugged and not willingly taken them? Cause today you certainly didn’t believe that I had been drugged.” He then accused as he let out a sigh.

“Well, it’s not like it’s my fault that you ran out like that when I clearly told you that it’s dangerous for you.” Jin defended himself, feeling that even if he had been the target, he wasn’t guilty this time. Kazuya had been the one to follow that man blindly, wanting to know more about Jin and preferring to ask strangers than his own lover. “If you had listened to me, nothing would have happened.” He said, determination and confidence in his voice.

Kazuya gritted his teeth. “If you had listened to me, then I wouldn’t have run away.” He replied back and peeked up at Jin. “Did you kill Shige?” he then asked, fear and worry in his voice. Should he even hope?

Jin looked back for a few seconds, not saying anything and just studying the boy’s eyes like he was trying to see beyond them. “No.” he finally answered, not knowing if it was wise to say this to Kazuya. “And I didn’t kill Pi and I won’t do it either.” He added, rolling his eyes and feeling annoyed that he really needed to explain this to his lover. “Look, I knew about Shige and, if you recall, I let you come into my office.” He reminded the younger, feeling the need to ruffle his hair just to be doing something with his hands and not just hold Kazuya. Instead, he lifted his right hand and started to trace lines on the boy’s arm, his eyes following his index finger’s move, while the other one remained at its place, keeping Kazuya close to him. “And Pi…” Jin sighed, really not knowing how to explain this. “Pi did this to draw attention because I haven’t been spending as much time with him lately.” He decided to say, even if this wasn’t even close to the truth and the real reason behind Yamapi’s behavior. But it had to do for now because it was a long story for which they didn’t have time.

But Kazuya didn’t need anymore to hear as he jumped up, straddling Jin as he began covering his face with kisses. “I love you~” He said happily, giving the older a long kiss on the lips. Jin hadn’t killed any of them, it was the best day all of a sudden! He pulled back a little and then looked at Jin doubtfully. “But you won’t do it later, no?” He asked and you could see the plea in his brown eyes and in the way his hands were holding Jin’s face a bit tight.

“I already said that I won’t do it.” Jin laughed a little, not knowing if he should be bothered that Kazuya seemed so happy because he hadn’t killed them - and start thinking why he was so happy - or if he should also be happy because the younger was showing him once again such a beautiful smile. He settled for none of them and instead Jin pouted, deciding that he was hurt because of Kazuya’s lack of confidence in him. “So you don’t trust me at all.” He said, pursing his lips and crossing his arms in the small space between their bodies.

Kazuya chuckled as he pecked once more Jin’s lips. “I do, but sometimes, there’s this little devil that turns crazy and just wants to make everyone disappear especially if they mess with his angel.” He continued and there was a certain amusement in his voice. “So I get insecure and I have to reconfirm~” He added and nuzzled their noses together as another genuine smile appeared on his lips.

“Well, I can sure make you happy easily.” Jin joked, this time not being able to stop the smile from appearing on his lips too. If Kazuya would be like this every time Jin threatened to kill someone and didn’t do it, maybe he should talk more about his business plans.

Kazuya closed his eyes, the happy smile still on his lips. “Hearing you say that you didn’t kill anyone makes me happier than you’d ever think.” He said with a hushed voice. “It eases my mind and I can close my eyes without seeing a bloody you in front of me.” He then continued and opened his eyes, showing to Jin how much he was affected by his ruthless ways of deciding one’s death. “I don’t want you to dirty your hands anymore.” Kazuya whispered and grabbed Jin’s hands, lacing their fingers together.

Jin sighed. “Then I promise that I won’t kill anyone if it’s not really important.” He said with a defeated voice, not believing that he was actually making this kind of promise. He raised his head and met Kazuya’s eyes, watching them a little worried. “Is it okay this way?” he asked, lifting one of his hands to gently caress the boy’s cheek.

Kazuya sighed and whispered a loving “Liar.” He leaned into the touch, his lips curling once more into a smile. “But I love the way you lie… so it’s okay.” He said and kissed Jin again.

*

Oh, God, his head was hurting like he had never felt it before. Jin felt like he had been awake for a whole week and had been drinking all the time, falling asleep only when his body had broken down. He had a terrible headache and he couldn’t move his body at all. One simple move made him feel like millions of needles pricked his skin and left him motionless on the bed.

Well, at least he was on a bed, Jin thought, relieved that at least he wasn’t in some strange place. He struggled to open his eyes, blinking often to get used to the faint light that was coming to his eyes after being closed for who knew how long. Jin definitely thought that a long time had passed since he had been last time conscious. But what had happened?

And where was he? The room was familiar, but Jin was sure that he hadn’t been here before. Besides him, the room seemed to be empty and occupied only by the big bed in the middle of it, a table with two chairs and a little dresser. It didn’t seem like someone had been living there, but the place looked nice and tiny, like it was being taken care of.

He tried to move yet again, ignoring the pain that seemed to be crushing him from the inside and telling him that he had been drugged to be brought there, but he found out that he couldn’t. Jin moved his hands again, but again he was restricted by something and when Jin glanced at them, he found his hands to be tied to the bedpost. It certainly seemed that the person who had done this didn’t want him to escape as there were a lot of nods and even some handcuffs to stop him from leaving the room. Oh, God, what kind of inexperienced maniac had kidnapped him now?

Jin sighed, knowing that there was nothing else he could do but to wait and to see who had brought him there. He would deal with this later as he knew that it won’t be that difficult to get away from there as soon as his vision cleared and his body stopped hurting. And it seemed that luck was on his side as he heard the door opening and someone coming inside. Jin struggled once again to focus and keep his eyes on the man who had entered, but as soon as realization hit him, his mind blanked and his heart stopped.

“Kazuya?”