Addictive Obsession - Chapter Seven [part I]
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Chapter seven
Seventh scent ~ Sky
People lie, but that’s okay, because you do it sometimes too and it’s not that bad when you really need to get out of something that will definitely get you into trouble but you feel that it shouldn’t be that important for others, just like it is for you. You accept lies because people aren’t perfect and some of us need a lie once in a while to keep our façade.
People hurt other people, but that is also okay because it happened to you too. You have sworn that you won’t do it but you find yourself faced with the truth that you couldn’t help yourself and did it again. You hurt others too but not because you wanted to. On the contrary, you would rather not get involved with them but you end up making them suffer. And then you suffer too.
People also aren’t perfect but that’s okay too because you know such a thing is impossible. You yourself aren’t perfect and when you look into the mirror, you see a different person each time. A person who lies. A person who hurts others. A person who smiles and acts like everything’s fine, only to stab the others in the back.
You hate yourself. But there’s nothing you can do because you can’t change. And you know you will continue to lie and hurt and deceive because it’s in your nature.
And you find yourself to enjoy it.
Jin opened his eyes, a wide smile plastered on his lips as it had been in the last four days. He felt dizzy, he felt like he was on some clouds and he didn’t know how to climb down but he also didn’t want to. It was a weird sensation and he couldn’t get rid of it no matter what he did. Even more, his heart seemed to be doing some strange flip-flops when he was with Kazuya that made Jin feel like a silly kid that was in love for the first time. It kind of annoyed him sometimes but some other times, it just made him feel content.
He stretched his body and looked at the clock on the wall. It was almost time, Kazuya would be home soon, he thought happily. It had become a routine for them, even if it had been happening for only four days. Kazuya would usually leave in the morning for school after making Jin breakfast and waking him up to take his medicine. Jin would whine that he doesn’t like the bitter taste and make Kazuya be late every morning but he still couldn’t win against the younger’s stubbornness and he would always find himself alone after a few minutes. The only good thing was that those damned pills usually made him sleepy so most of the time that Kazuya wasn’t with him, Jin would spent it alone in his dreams.
He yawned and got off bed, walking to the kitchen while whistling and feeling happy just because he wasn’t limping anymore. He had always recovered fast, especially because he’d hide his vital points in a fight and even if it looked bad and it hurt like hell at first, he would end up with only a few scratches. But this time he had really thought that it won’t be as easy. He had ignored his wounds and stood up to defend Kazuya from those bastards. He hadn’t felt the pain in that moment, the adrenaline governing his body and his desire to protect Kazuya being the only thing that kept him moving forward. But it had hit him later. Hard.
He sighed and filled a glass with water, gulping it down. He still had an hour until the younger would be home and Jin was starting to feel bored. He considered for a moment to call Pi or Ryo but he quickly dismissed his thought, knowing that he won’t be able to get rid of them after. And he wanted to be alone with Kazuya, he didn’t want anyone to disturb them.
Even if he hadn’t touched Kazuya since long before the fight. Jin groaned and put the glass on the table with too much force, listening mesmerized to the loud sound that it made. He didn’t get it, but it wasn’t such a surprise now, seeing as he wasn’t getting anything about Kazuya. He still had a lot of questions but Kazuya had seemed uncomfortable with such topics so Jin had dropped it eventually. But how long was he going to wait? He wanted Kazuya, he wanted him more than ever, but in the last four days he couldn’t even steal a kiss from him, not even an innocent one - that would have definitely developed into something else, but still.
He honestly didn’t know what to do anymore, how to approach Kazuya or what to say. They were too different. While Jin had always said everything that goes through his mind, Kazuya was more reserved and didn’t like to share his thoughts with someone else. Jin was loud and wanted a lot of attention but Kazuya seemed to be happy to be sitting in a corner, hidden by the darkness of the room. But in the same time, they were so much alike, that Jin didn’t even know from where to begin.
He cursed and grabbed his phone to call Kazuya and tell him to skip class and come to see him when his stomach growled. He hissed, only now remembering why he went to the kitchen in the first place and he sighed, annoyed that he doesn’t have Kazuya with him to cook something delicious. His eyes widened, sparkling with a weird glint, and the goofy smile was back on his lips. His idea was perfect and Jin really hoped that the younger will think the same when he’ll see his surprise.
Not wanting to waste any more time, he started to look through his kitchen for the ingredients to make his famous pasta. He started cooking, being careful to not burn the food, swirling around the table and singing happily.
And that was how Kazuya found him, an hour later.
“What are you doing?” the younger asked as soon as he entered the kitchen and looked around. “You should have stayed in bed, you know.” He then scolded, though his stomach grumbled at the rich smell that was engulfing the kitchen. He had skipped breakfast this time.
“But I’m already sick of staying in bed!” Jin turned to look at him, already pouting and crossing his arms, the paddle still in his right hand. “It’s been four days and I’m feeling perfectly well!” he proudly stated, closing the distance between the two of them and kissing Kazuya on his cheek. He grinned at the younger and then he immediately turned his back on him, returning at the frying pan to put the meat on plates, next to the pasta.
Kazuya almost took a step back when Jin kissed his cheek. He didn’t expect such a quick and careless action from Jin and he definitely hadn’t been ready for it. His heart was beating fast now and he could feel his cheeks burn. Kazuya decided it was for the best to ignore what just happened and go to see what Jin did this time.
“You didn’t burn the meat, did you?” he asked, now close to the older and looking over his shoulder. The meat looked well-done but that didn’t mean he couldn’t tease. “And you should have really stayed in bed. You’re not Superman to heal that fast.” He then added in an undertone, totally not giving up on scolding the careless Jin.
“Mouu, Kazu~” Jin pouted again. “I may be a disaster in the kitchen but this I know how to do it!” he said with the same proud tone while finishing putting the meat on the two plates. “Or… I usually do.” He added as an afterthought, though with a small voice to not be heard. He put them on the table and then turned again to face Kazuya, stopping close to him and raising his hands on the younger’s shoulders, massaging them slowly. “You’re tired.” He then said, not asked, looking into Kazuya’s brown orbs.
Kazuya chuckled at Jin’s last remark. “Look who’s talking.” He said, shrugging off Jin’s hands. He was not tired, he just didn’t sleep much last night. “You should be in bed.” He insisted again, looking stern.
“Then come with me.” Jin replied excited, hugging Kazuya, his eyes still locked with the younger’s. “It’s been so damned lonely these days without you…” he trailed the last words, leaning over Kazuya, now his eyes seeing only those lips that he had missed so much.
The younger tensed and almost wanted to stop Jin, but instead he squeezed his eyes shut, waiting for the other to move. And Jin didn’t waste any more time, catching his lips with his own, also closing his eyes and letting himself fall into oblivion. It was sweet, the same strawberry taste that he remembered from when he first kissed Kazuya. His mouth was as addicting as ever, his lips were inviting and his tongue was making Jin feel like he can lose any sense of rationality. He licked his lips slowly, only brushing Kazuya’s tongue with his own. He bit gently on them and Kazuya suppressed a moan, opening his mouth and letting Jin take advantage of it to explore him more. It was still slow, something unusual for Jin, but still full of passion and desire and longing. His moves were gentle and his hands were keeping Kazuya close to his body, a little possessive, a little fearful. Jin tell them fall on Kazuya’s back, one stopping above his waist and the other continuing to touch the younger until Jin found Kazuya’s back pocket and slid his hand inside.
The younger trembled at the sudden feel of Jin’s hand and he backed off a little, putting an end to their kiss. His eyes were still closed and his heart was still beating at fast speed, making him feel weak and vulnerable. Had he missed this? Had he wanted this to happen? Was he afraid of Jin? The last question made him open his eyes and he found out that his hands were on Jin’s chest, holding the man at a close distance but safe. His hands didn’t show it, but inside he was trembling. Kazuya was feeling unsure and doubtful of everything that happened to him, of everything that made him like this.
“The food will get cold.” He said on a hoarse voice and although he wanted to move, his legs weren’t listening to him.
“We can heat it later.” Jin replied, his voice full of desire and need. He strengthened his hold on Kazuya, bringing the boy again close to him, crushing his slim body against his and claiming his lips for the second time but in a much fiercer kiss, without losing its gentleness. He lowered both of his hands to Kazuya’s ass, groping it and groaning into the kiss, earning for more friction, for more touches and for less clothes. For more Kazuya.
The boy let himself be taken by Jin, surrendering to the sweet and sinful sensations of being touched, kissed and desired. If he missed the ones offered by Jin, he wasn’t sure because this never mattered to him. Whether it was someone familiar or it was a stranger. He lifted his hands and grabbed onto Jin’s shirt, squeezing it, until his nails managed to scratch the warm skin underneath it. Kazuya moved his hips up, feeling Jin’s arousal and smirked in their kiss. He bit hard onto the older’s lower lip, quickly licking and sucking it slowly. He then slid his tongue into the other’s mouth, tasting and filling it with his own flavor. Kazuya pulled Jin over him, their bent bodies allowing him to encircle Jin’s waist with his legs. If Kazuya had felt any doubts earlier, he had long forgotten them, the need of sex being the sole thing controlling him now.
Jin was already lost on the land of desire and need and sex. He had his eyes closed, kissing Kazuya and feeling like it had been an eternity since he last kissed those delicious lips which managed every time to make him lose his mind. He stopped the kiss for a moment and Kazuya licked his lips, looking into Jin’s eyes and making him smirk when the older saw the same intense desire reflected in Kazuya’s brown orbs as the one he was possessed by. He turned around with Kazuya in his arms, legs still circled around his waist and he put him on the counter, not wanting to waste not even one more second. He had earned for this for days, but he couldn’t touch the younger while he couldn’t move freely. And before this happened, Jin had avoided him for almost a week now, a week in which he couldn’t take advantage of this beautiful body that was now arching under his touch.
Jin heard him hiss when Kazuya’s butt landed on the cold counter and his back hit the wall because of too much force. The younger groaned, still keeping his hands around Jin’s neck, even if it wasn’t as hard as before now that he had opened his eyes and saw where they were.
“Jin… not here…” he managed to say between kisses and sucking and ravishing Jin’s lips which continued to explore every inch of his mouth, almost like Jin had already forgotten the feel of them and wanted to know it yet again.
But Kazuya could understand him, because every touch of Jin was so familiar but in the same time was so different. He didn’t know what had changed but his body could notice the difference and now Kazuya was aware of it too. It was as rushed as before, as needy and powerful, and he felt as wanted as every time Jin claimed his lips. Jin was hurrying in his moves and Kazuya knew that the only thing on his mind was to be buried deep inside his hole, but he had known this part of Jin from the first night he had met him. His body trembled when that image popped in his head, Jin’s teeth biting his ear and his hands slowly slipping into his pants,, making him moan and his head fall back, while his hands desperately tried to find something to catch. He lowered them, clutching Jin’s shirt and tucking on it to make Jin know what he wanted.
“Can’t wait. Too late for that.” Jin growled, because only now he remembered what Kazuya had said and he definitely didn’t have any desire to move, even if it was until they got to the next room. His hands continued to explore Kazuya’s body, getting rid of his clothes one by one. His lips traveled on Kazuya, sucking and kissing and leaving marks to show the whole world whom Kazuya belongs to. His tongue was playing with the younger’s nipples and Jin would feel something hot filling him up every time Kazuya moaned, the sound of it making it into his pants which were now too uncomfortable to hold on. He buried his tongue into Kazuya’s navel, biting it hard and then gently licking it as if to sooth it. The younger’s grip on his shirt got even stronger, making him feel the need of release in his crotch and the desire to be filled taking over his mind. His hands moved haphazardly, tucking on Jin’s clothes, ripping his shirt in his hurry to get rid of it. He stopped in his moves when Jin’s hand finally ended its teasing and dived deep into Kazuya’s pants, grabbing his crotch into a strong hold, while Jin’s fingers were brushing on Kazuya’s balls. He growled, half-satisfied because of the much needed contact, half-annoyed because Jin still wasn’t giving him what he wanted.
He forced himself to open his eyes and to ignore Jin’s administrations, his hand slowly and teasingly moving or his tongue leaving burning imprints on his skin. “I thought you wanted to fuck me, not play hide-and-seek.” Kazuya whispered in his ear, a smirk forming on his lips when he felt Jin trembling in his arms. He gently licked the back of his ear, leaving a wet trace behind it before he bit on it, hard and merciless, making Jin scream of pleasure and pain in the same time. His hands were already busy with Jin’s zipper, lowering it and paying Jin back with interest. Kazuya couldn’t hide the smug expression from his face when Jin seemed to get annoyed and detach himself from Kazuya for a second.
“Fuck!” he cursed, his limit already long gone. He looked at Kazuya with what wanted to be intimidating eyes, but he only managed to make Kazuya laugh, as his face seemed to resemble more to a kicked puppy. A horny kicked puppy. “Oh, that’s how you want to play?” Jin said with a teasing voice, leaning over Kazuya and stopping his laugh with his lips.
It was slow now, even if Jin had seemed to be impatient and to hurry to be as soon as possible inside of Kazuya. His tongue gently licked Kazuya’s lips, making him open his mouth once again to welcome that weird and fussy feeling which seemed to be giving the younger wings in that moment. His whole body trembled and Kazuya didn’t know why because Jin’s hands weren’t touching him anymore, both of them were placed on the counter, supporting Jin’s body. His heart started to beat faster when Jin tilted his head a little to deepen the contact between them, reaching deeper into Kazuya’s mouth but still with the same gentleness and carefulness that Kazuya didn’t know what to think of. He smiled into the kiss, finally realizing what was different, why everything seemed to be so strange from the beginning.
Jin had always been rushed and he had always only cared about his need, to satisfy his own desire. But now every move that he made, every touch that Kazuya felt or every kiss that Jin gave him… everything was meant to satisfy him. His moves weren’t full of love, maybe even far from it. But Kazuya could tell that Jin cared about him, that even if he was desperately wanting to get his own release and forget about everything else, this time he had put Kazuya on first place, thinking more about him, about how to make him feel good and drive him mad until he’ll finally lose it.
He didn’t know when Jin had managed to get rid of both of their pants because he was too engrossed into the kiss that seemed to be never ending. He finally opened his eyes to find Jin’s eyes observing his face, like he wanted to be sure that he isn’t making a mistake. He found both of his hands deep buried in Jin’s hair, holding it with a strong grip which definitely wasn’t comfortable and keeping his head close to his. Something pocked his stomach and Kazuya allowed himself a moment to breathe before he looked down to see Jin’s erection.
“Are you okay?” he heard Jin’s husked voice and Kazuya jumped, surprised by the low and almost uncontrollable voice. Why was he asking that? He should be the one to ask if Jin’s okay, seeing as he was beaten to death only a few days ago. Kazuya didn’t have any injuries, he was perfectly fine but even so, Jin was asking him if he’s okay. It was wrong, everything was wrong, but Kazuya couldn’t help not to be a little happy.
He nodded, after what seemed to be an eternity, and Jin smiled. Kazuya closed his eyes again when Jin leaned over him and they kissed for what seemed to be the umpteenth time and also the first time. He grinned into the kiss and decided to let himself fall, even if there wasn’t a safety net waiting for him or even an end to his fall. He had Jin’s arms, they were supporting him and the younger felt in that moment that it’s enough.
“Lie down.” He heard Jin’s husky voice again and Kazuya trembled only at the sound of it. He slowly nodded, not understanding what was Jin planning but wanting to let himself in the hands of the older. It felt somehow safe, even if Kazuya wasn’t sure that he’d feel the same after they have sex and his mind won’t be as clouded and confused as it was now. But even if it wasn’t real, even if it was meant to last only for an hour, Kazuya wanted to trust Jin and let the older show him the possibilities of their relationship.
Jin smiled gently and leaned over Kazuya, leaving a wet trail with his tongue from the younger’s lips, on his chin, moving and teasing his nipples and going down to suck his navel and make Kazuya giggle. He went even further and his tongue descended on Kazuya’s member, licking it slowly and taunting the sensitive skin with short licks and small touches. He sucked on the top of it and Kazuya moaned, unprepared at the sudden sensation that hit him. He tried to find something to hold onto, but Jin seemed too far away and there was nothing near him that could help him through his torture. He finally settled on trashing under Jin, bucking his hips in need of more friction and moaning shamelessly when Jin’s tongue traveled even further, finding Kazuya’s hole and burying itself into the hot and sweet cavern, Jin’s hands holding the younger’s hips up and his legs apart.
“Oh my God.” Kazuya breathed, feeling a million of new sensations how it hit him harshly, leaving him without breath, rationality and mind. He closed his eyes tight as Jin slowly started to work inside of his hole, licking around it and entering it suddenly, exactly when the younger was starting to feel a little more relaxed. He cursed, hating Jin for teasing him so merciless and loving him for the way he moved his tongue and used his lips to kiss the bottom of Kazuya. Jin’s hands were now stretching his hole, his fingers holding on Kazuya’s ass cheeks to have more room of moving. His tongue found the pulsing hole yet again and entered it, a finger now added to it and making the younger moan even louder, overwhelmed by the lust and need of being filled.
“You like that, don’t you?” Jin whispered against his hole, sending hot puffs of air and making Kazuya groan desperately. He couldn’t make any word and it was good because he didn’t want to reply to Jin, fearing that he’ll say the truth and admit how much he wants this. He cursed himself because he seemed to be wanting this even more than Jin, but Kazuya couldn’t keep his thought long enough because Jin entered another digit into his hole and now Kazuya had to swallow a cry of pain.
“I’m sorry, baby, are you okay?” Jin immediately raised himself and looked into Kazuya’s eyes, sensing the younger’s body tensing and trembling at the sudden invasion. He cupped Kazuya’s cheek and ran a finger over it, as if to sooth it, and when Kazuya opened his eyes, he found Jin’s gentle gaze adorning above him and watching him with care and concern. The glint of desire and lust was still there, but Kazuya knew and he could also feel in Jin’s touches what he wanted to say without words. “I don’t have any lube here so it’s going to hurt a little.” He then added, lowering his hand to brush on the younger’s body, trying to make him relax while his other hand was still buried inside Kazuya.
“Just do it.” Kazuya said, even if his words seemed a little forced, but it wasn’t because of the pain anymore but because of the desire filling him up again and making him forget everything about any kind of pain.
Jin nodded and removed his fingers from Kazuya’s hole, smirking when a whimper left the younger’s lips and his eyes searched for him to see what Jin was planning now. He saw him spitting on his hand, spreading the saliva on his fingers and bringing his hand back to Kazuya’s ass, sliding now easier inside and allowing Jin to scissor his fingers and finally start to stretch Kazuya properly.
“Come here.” Kazuya demanded, not wanting Jin to disappear again between his legs - even if it would be mind blowing - but wanting to see his face, to gaze into his eyes and watch his expression changing with every move of his, with every thrust Kazuya gave, pushing Jin’s fingers even deeper and making him moan, with every touch that he caressed the older with, making him close his eyes to enjoy the sensation and bite his lips when Kazuya’s nails would gently scratch his skin, with every kiss that they shared, battling with Jin’s tongue and winning over it, enjoying the smirk that Jin would show against Kazuya’s lips and savoring the sweet taste of everything that was Jin.
Jin obliged and their lips found each other again, fighting and trying to dominate each other into a fight of power which neither of them seemed to be able to let go, but in the same time wanting to let themselves fall into the sensation of their brushing tongues and burning skin. Jin’s hand found Kazuya’s and their fingers entwined as the older finally removed his fingers and settled his cock above the boy’s hole, looking at Kazuya and waiting for an okay. The other one slightly nodded, biting his lips and already feeling the sweet sensation of being invaded, cursing the fact that Jin was still taunting him and just pocking his ass, driving Kazuya crazy and making him want more. A small whimper of frustration escaped the younger’s lips, but before he could say anything, Jin entered him and Kazuya bit hard on his lower lip, drawing blood from it and not deciding if he should moan because of his desire finally being accomplished or scream because of the pain that came with it. He finally choose to just bury his fingers even more into Jin’s scalp and to bring him closer, kissing him like tomorrow was the end of the world, like this was their last kiss and they would never see each other after this, giving everything he had and receiving everything that was Jin, their mouths muffling their groans and growls and moans as Jin slowly started to move inside of Kazuya.
Jin’s hand settled on the back of Kazuya but that didn’t last long as he detached himself from the kiss and let his hands fall onto Kazuya’s ass, pushing on it and reaching a new angle in the boy’s hole and also making him scream harder. Kazuya was panting almost randomly now, slower when Jin’s pace was slow, faster when Jin hurried to finish only to stop not long after. It was a maddening game, a game which was slowly consuming the both of them and with every thrust of Jin’s or every push of Kazuya, everything seemed to disappear around them and only the sweet sensation of their joined bodies remaining.
They kissed again and this time Jin let himself fall into the temptation of Kazuya’s body, pouring all of his feelings and desire into the kiss, forcing his tongue into Kazuya’s mouth and kissing him hard and wet. His moves grew faster and he didn’t care anymore about the bruises that would definitely appear on the younger’s body because of the raw and animal way of having sex, searching only for his pleasure and wanting to find it quickly, before he explodes. He continued to hit that sweet spot inside of Kazuya’s hole, earning more screams of his name and more feverish touches on his body. When he came, Jin closed his eyes and glued his mouth to Kazuya’s, moaning and screaming into his mouth as the younger’s nails buried themselves deep into Jin’s flesh, bringing Kazuya to his release too.
And then everything stopped. Silence fell over them as both of them tried desperately to regain their breaths, Jin still leaning over Kazuya and circling his waist into a loose embrace. And only now he realized that something had been different about their loving this time. He hadn’t noticed it, driven by his desire and want and desperation of wanting to be with Kazuya, but now, when everything settled down, Jin discovered that he couldn’t stop the beating of his heart no matter how much time passed. He couldn’t breathe, something stopped him and made him powerless in front of Kazuya and when this thought made way into his mind, all kind of images from the last days also came with it, overwhelming Jin and making him feel like losing his mind.
It couldn’t be. But Jin couldn’t stop the words from escaping his lips and when he finally realized what he said, it was too late.
“I love you.”
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It was beginning to get on his nerves, not that Jin wasn’t already sick of it all. It felt like he was running in circles in the whole country even if he was just walking back and forward through his living room, in a failed attempt to calm down. It wasn’t working, but he had too much energy to spend and Jin didn’t feel tired at all even if he had indeed been running down the whole town trying to find Kazuya.
It hadn’t worked. He always seemed to miss the moment when Kazuya came home, even if he had stayed an entire night to wait for the younger. He hadn’t been to college either because Jin had checked it too and his colleagues said that they hadn’t seen him since a couple of days ago and that was the last time he had seen the younger too. Jin had even tried to talk with Kazuya’s friends but it seemed that bad luck was on his side because he couldn’t find them either. And if they weren’t hitting any clubs… then Jin had even less chances of talking with them.
He was starting to get worried. What if something bad had happened to Kazuya? The last time they had seen each other… Jin had said something that surprised even himself. The feeling from when those words rolled off his mouth was still engraved in his heart and he couldn’t make himself get rid of it no matter how much he tried. It was the first time he had said ‘I love you’ to someone and actually mean it. It was the first time he had laid himself bare in front of someone and this thought made him also feel fear like never before. He was now completely vulnerable in front of Kazuya, but also in front of his enemies. Everyone knew that Kazuya is his and nobody dared to touch him, but… there were still some who still tried. Who wanted to hurt him. Who might have done it now.
He cursed and hit a chair with his foot, making it crash into the wall with a loud bump. He ruffled his hair in exasperation and looked once more at his phone, like he had done in the past hour, willing it to ring and tell him some good news. He hadn’t seen the younger in the morning after they had sex so Jin had suspected that Kazuya had already gone to college. He had waited for him the whole day, only to find out that no one is coming, just his stupid friends who wanted to mock him. He had tried to call Kazuya, but no one answered. He went to his apartment - hitting Yamapi because he was trying to stand in his way just for the heck of it, as Jin called it - but no one was there. There wasn’t even a trace of the younger.
That was two days ago.
“Come one, ring!!” he urged his phone, dreading even more the thought that Kazuya had been kidnapped because of him with each second that passed. He was sure that all the gangsters knew by now that he had risked his life for Kazuya and now they wanted to get revenge on him by using the boy. It was the dirtiest trick in the book, but also the most affective, Jin had to admit, because he was now losing his mind while wondering what the hell happened with Kazuya.
Finally, his phone rang and Jin didn’t waste a second and launched himself to it and answered. “Where is he? Who got him?” he asked quickly, already taking his jacket and searching his keys to go and rescue Kazuya.
“Jin, you’re not going to like this.” Yamapi said on the other line with a careful voice that only made Jin feel more frustrated with himself.
“Tell me!!” he yelled into the phone and he knew that his friend flinched at the sound of his voice, the anger and hate hidden in it.
“He’s in a club. He’s alone and he… seems to be looking for some company.”
Jin blinked, taking a few moments for the words to register into his brain. So Kazuya was fine, he wasn’t in any danger at all. He was just out to have some fun. To search for another man to fuck him all night!!
“I’m going to kill him.” were the last words Jin uttered before leaving his apartment and run towards the club where Yamapi was. He was already out of the block when his phone rang again with a message from Pi that contained the address of the club. Blinded by anger, the thought of taking a car or his motorbike didn’t even cross Jin’s mind when he turned right, clenching his fists and trying to calm down just a little bit. It wasn’t working.
He had never run so fast. And he had never felt his heart beating this fast either. He didn’t know the cause, if it was excitement for finally being able to see Kazuya again or if it was fury because the younger had hidden himself from Jin for these two days. The one thing he did know was that he was angry, he was boiling with anger and he wanted to see Kazuya right now and to assure himself that he’s alright. After that… to be honest he didn’t know. He wanted to kiss Kazuya because it had been so long since he last tasted those lips. He wanted to yell at him because he had disappeared for two days without a trace, without a word. And he wanted to…
He sighed and took a deep breath, pushing open the door to the club and coming inside. He advanced through the crowd, his eyes carefully searching for Kazuya’s thin form until he finally saw him. And that was when Jin finally exploded.
He marched to the younger boy and in a couple of seconds, he was already by his side, his hand clenched on the younger’s arm and his eyes staring at the other man that was talking with Kazuya. He’ll be damned if he lets this go easily! His grip was hard and his nails were digging into Kazuya’s skin little by little but Jin didn’t seem to notice it. He didn’t care anymore. He had sworn that he’ll make Kazuya pay if he finds him with another man. And it was more than clearly that Kazuya was hitting on this guy!!
“Fuck off.” Jin barked at the man, his voice not leaving any room for questioning and his eyes piercing into the depth of his soul.
He seemed mad and he seemed like he wanted to kill someone.
Next part
Pairing: Akame, slight Kokame & Jinda
Genre: Smut, AU, drama, tragedy
Warnings: use of drugs, whoring, slaving, insanity, bad language, incest and a lot more to come xD You've been warned, so don't read if you don't want to see them in a lot of pain *evil laugh*
Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, but we're in the process of making it true!! The proof is Jin's twitter~
Summary: Kazuya’s addiction becomes Jin’s obsession. They came to need each other to the extend of wanting to kill.
First Scent ~ Strawberry
Second Scent ~ Poison
Third Scent ~ Musk
Fourth Scent ~ Ecstasy
Fifth Scent ~ Spring
Sixth Scent ~ Fear
Chapter seven
Seventh scent ~ Sky
People lie, but that’s okay, because you do it sometimes too and it’s not that bad when you really need to get out of something that will definitely get you into trouble but you feel that it shouldn’t be that important for others, just like it is for you. You accept lies because people aren’t perfect and some of us need a lie once in a while to keep our façade.
People hurt other people, but that is also okay because it happened to you too. You have sworn that you won’t do it but you find yourself faced with the truth that you couldn’t help yourself and did it again. You hurt others too but not because you wanted to. On the contrary, you would rather not get involved with them but you end up making them suffer. And then you suffer too.
People also aren’t perfect but that’s okay too because you know such a thing is impossible. You yourself aren’t perfect and when you look into the mirror, you see a different person each time. A person who lies. A person who hurts others. A person who smiles and acts like everything’s fine, only to stab the others in the back.
You hate yourself. But there’s nothing you can do because you can’t change. And you know you will continue to lie and hurt and deceive because it’s in your nature.
And you find yourself to enjoy it.
Jin opened his eyes, a wide smile plastered on his lips as it had been in the last four days. He felt dizzy, he felt like he was on some clouds and he didn’t know how to climb down but he also didn’t want to. It was a weird sensation and he couldn’t get rid of it no matter what he did. Even more, his heart seemed to be doing some strange flip-flops when he was with Kazuya that made Jin feel like a silly kid that was in love for the first time. It kind of annoyed him sometimes but some other times, it just made him feel content.
He stretched his body and looked at the clock on the wall. It was almost time, Kazuya would be home soon, he thought happily. It had become a routine for them, even if it had been happening for only four days. Kazuya would usually leave in the morning for school after making Jin breakfast and waking him up to take his medicine. Jin would whine that he doesn’t like the bitter taste and make Kazuya be late every morning but he still couldn’t win against the younger’s stubbornness and he would always find himself alone after a few minutes. The only good thing was that those damned pills usually made him sleepy so most of the time that Kazuya wasn’t with him, Jin would spent it alone in his dreams.
He yawned and got off bed, walking to the kitchen while whistling and feeling happy just because he wasn’t limping anymore. He had always recovered fast, especially because he’d hide his vital points in a fight and even if it looked bad and it hurt like hell at first, he would end up with only a few scratches. But this time he had really thought that it won’t be as easy. He had ignored his wounds and stood up to defend Kazuya from those bastards. He hadn’t felt the pain in that moment, the adrenaline governing his body and his desire to protect Kazuya being the only thing that kept him moving forward. But it had hit him later. Hard.
He sighed and filled a glass with water, gulping it down. He still had an hour until the younger would be home and Jin was starting to feel bored. He considered for a moment to call Pi or Ryo but he quickly dismissed his thought, knowing that he won’t be able to get rid of them after. And he wanted to be alone with Kazuya, he didn’t want anyone to disturb them.
Even if he hadn’t touched Kazuya since long before the fight. Jin groaned and put the glass on the table with too much force, listening mesmerized to the loud sound that it made. He didn’t get it, but it wasn’t such a surprise now, seeing as he wasn’t getting anything about Kazuya. He still had a lot of questions but Kazuya had seemed uncomfortable with such topics so Jin had dropped it eventually. But how long was he going to wait? He wanted Kazuya, he wanted him more than ever, but in the last four days he couldn’t even steal a kiss from him, not even an innocent one - that would have definitely developed into something else, but still.
He honestly didn’t know what to do anymore, how to approach Kazuya or what to say. They were too different. While Jin had always said everything that goes through his mind, Kazuya was more reserved and didn’t like to share his thoughts with someone else. Jin was loud and wanted a lot of attention but Kazuya seemed to be happy to be sitting in a corner, hidden by the darkness of the room. But in the same time, they were so much alike, that Jin didn’t even know from where to begin.
He cursed and grabbed his phone to call Kazuya and tell him to skip class and come to see him when his stomach growled. He hissed, only now remembering why he went to the kitchen in the first place and he sighed, annoyed that he doesn’t have Kazuya with him to cook something delicious. His eyes widened, sparkling with a weird glint, and the goofy smile was back on his lips. His idea was perfect and Jin really hoped that the younger will think the same when he’ll see his surprise.
Not wanting to waste any more time, he started to look through his kitchen for the ingredients to make his famous pasta. He started cooking, being careful to not burn the food, swirling around the table and singing happily.
And that was how Kazuya found him, an hour later.
“What are you doing?” the younger asked as soon as he entered the kitchen and looked around. “You should have stayed in bed, you know.” He then scolded, though his stomach grumbled at the rich smell that was engulfing the kitchen. He had skipped breakfast this time.
“But I’m already sick of staying in bed!” Jin turned to look at him, already pouting and crossing his arms, the paddle still in his right hand. “It’s been four days and I’m feeling perfectly well!” he proudly stated, closing the distance between the two of them and kissing Kazuya on his cheek. He grinned at the younger and then he immediately turned his back on him, returning at the frying pan to put the meat on plates, next to the pasta.
Kazuya almost took a step back when Jin kissed his cheek. He didn’t expect such a quick and careless action from Jin and he definitely hadn’t been ready for it. His heart was beating fast now and he could feel his cheeks burn. Kazuya decided it was for the best to ignore what just happened and go to see what Jin did this time.
“You didn’t burn the meat, did you?” he asked, now close to the older and looking over his shoulder. The meat looked well-done but that didn’t mean he couldn’t tease. “And you should have really stayed in bed. You’re not Superman to heal that fast.” He then added in an undertone, totally not giving up on scolding the careless Jin.
“Mouu, Kazu~” Jin pouted again. “I may be a disaster in the kitchen but this I know how to do it!” he said with the same proud tone while finishing putting the meat on the two plates. “Or… I usually do.” He added as an afterthought, though with a small voice to not be heard. He put them on the table and then turned again to face Kazuya, stopping close to him and raising his hands on the younger’s shoulders, massaging them slowly. “You’re tired.” He then said, not asked, looking into Kazuya’s brown orbs.
Kazuya chuckled at Jin’s last remark. “Look who’s talking.” He said, shrugging off Jin’s hands. He was not tired, he just didn’t sleep much last night. “You should be in bed.” He insisted again, looking stern.
“Then come with me.” Jin replied excited, hugging Kazuya, his eyes still locked with the younger’s. “It’s been so damned lonely these days without you…” he trailed the last words, leaning over Kazuya, now his eyes seeing only those lips that he had missed so much.
The younger tensed and almost wanted to stop Jin, but instead he squeezed his eyes shut, waiting for the other to move. And Jin didn’t waste any more time, catching his lips with his own, also closing his eyes and letting himself fall into oblivion. It was sweet, the same strawberry taste that he remembered from when he first kissed Kazuya. His mouth was as addicting as ever, his lips were inviting and his tongue was making Jin feel like he can lose any sense of rationality. He licked his lips slowly, only brushing Kazuya’s tongue with his own. He bit gently on them and Kazuya suppressed a moan, opening his mouth and letting Jin take advantage of it to explore him more. It was still slow, something unusual for Jin, but still full of passion and desire and longing. His moves were gentle and his hands were keeping Kazuya close to his body, a little possessive, a little fearful. Jin tell them fall on Kazuya’s back, one stopping above his waist and the other continuing to touch the younger until Jin found Kazuya’s back pocket and slid his hand inside.
The younger trembled at the sudden feel of Jin’s hand and he backed off a little, putting an end to their kiss. His eyes were still closed and his heart was still beating at fast speed, making him feel weak and vulnerable. Had he missed this? Had he wanted this to happen? Was he afraid of Jin? The last question made him open his eyes and he found out that his hands were on Jin’s chest, holding the man at a close distance but safe. His hands didn’t show it, but inside he was trembling. Kazuya was feeling unsure and doubtful of everything that happened to him, of everything that made him like this.
“The food will get cold.” He said on a hoarse voice and although he wanted to move, his legs weren’t listening to him.
“We can heat it later.” Jin replied, his voice full of desire and need. He strengthened his hold on Kazuya, bringing the boy again close to him, crushing his slim body against his and claiming his lips for the second time but in a much fiercer kiss, without losing its gentleness. He lowered both of his hands to Kazuya’s ass, groping it and groaning into the kiss, earning for more friction, for more touches and for less clothes. For more Kazuya.
The boy let himself be taken by Jin, surrendering to the sweet and sinful sensations of being touched, kissed and desired. If he missed the ones offered by Jin, he wasn’t sure because this never mattered to him. Whether it was someone familiar or it was a stranger. He lifted his hands and grabbed onto Jin’s shirt, squeezing it, until his nails managed to scratch the warm skin underneath it. Kazuya moved his hips up, feeling Jin’s arousal and smirked in their kiss. He bit hard onto the older’s lower lip, quickly licking and sucking it slowly. He then slid his tongue into the other’s mouth, tasting and filling it with his own flavor. Kazuya pulled Jin over him, their bent bodies allowing him to encircle Jin’s waist with his legs. If Kazuya had felt any doubts earlier, he had long forgotten them, the need of sex being the sole thing controlling him now.
Jin was already lost on the land of desire and need and sex. He had his eyes closed, kissing Kazuya and feeling like it had been an eternity since he last kissed those delicious lips which managed every time to make him lose his mind. He stopped the kiss for a moment and Kazuya licked his lips, looking into Jin’s eyes and making him smirk when the older saw the same intense desire reflected in Kazuya’s brown orbs as the one he was possessed by. He turned around with Kazuya in his arms, legs still circled around his waist and he put him on the counter, not wanting to waste not even one more second. He had earned for this for days, but he couldn’t touch the younger while he couldn’t move freely. And before this happened, Jin had avoided him for almost a week now, a week in which he couldn’t take advantage of this beautiful body that was now arching under his touch.
Jin heard him hiss when Kazuya’s butt landed on the cold counter and his back hit the wall because of too much force. The younger groaned, still keeping his hands around Jin’s neck, even if it wasn’t as hard as before now that he had opened his eyes and saw where they were.
“Jin… not here…” he managed to say between kisses and sucking and ravishing Jin’s lips which continued to explore every inch of his mouth, almost like Jin had already forgotten the feel of them and wanted to know it yet again.
But Kazuya could understand him, because every touch of Jin was so familiar but in the same time was so different. He didn’t know what had changed but his body could notice the difference and now Kazuya was aware of it too. It was as rushed as before, as needy and powerful, and he felt as wanted as every time Jin claimed his lips. Jin was hurrying in his moves and Kazuya knew that the only thing on his mind was to be buried deep inside his hole, but he had known this part of Jin from the first night he had met him. His body trembled when that image popped in his head, Jin’s teeth biting his ear and his hands slowly slipping into his pants,, making him moan and his head fall back, while his hands desperately tried to find something to catch. He lowered them, clutching Jin’s shirt and tucking on it to make Jin know what he wanted.
“Can’t wait. Too late for that.” Jin growled, because only now he remembered what Kazuya had said and he definitely didn’t have any desire to move, even if it was until they got to the next room. His hands continued to explore Kazuya’s body, getting rid of his clothes one by one. His lips traveled on Kazuya, sucking and kissing and leaving marks to show the whole world whom Kazuya belongs to. His tongue was playing with the younger’s nipples and Jin would feel something hot filling him up every time Kazuya moaned, the sound of it making it into his pants which were now too uncomfortable to hold on. He buried his tongue into Kazuya’s navel, biting it hard and then gently licking it as if to sooth it. The younger’s grip on his shirt got even stronger, making him feel the need of release in his crotch and the desire to be filled taking over his mind. His hands moved haphazardly, tucking on Jin’s clothes, ripping his shirt in his hurry to get rid of it. He stopped in his moves when Jin’s hand finally ended its teasing and dived deep into Kazuya’s pants, grabbing his crotch into a strong hold, while Jin’s fingers were brushing on Kazuya’s balls. He growled, half-satisfied because of the much needed contact, half-annoyed because Jin still wasn’t giving him what he wanted.
He forced himself to open his eyes and to ignore Jin’s administrations, his hand slowly and teasingly moving or his tongue leaving burning imprints on his skin. “I thought you wanted to fuck me, not play hide-and-seek.” Kazuya whispered in his ear, a smirk forming on his lips when he felt Jin trembling in his arms. He gently licked the back of his ear, leaving a wet trace behind it before he bit on it, hard and merciless, making Jin scream of pleasure and pain in the same time. His hands were already busy with Jin’s zipper, lowering it and paying Jin back with interest. Kazuya couldn’t hide the smug expression from his face when Jin seemed to get annoyed and detach himself from Kazuya for a second.
“Fuck!” he cursed, his limit already long gone. He looked at Kazuya with what wanted to be intimidating eyes, but he only managed to make Kazuya laugh, as his face seemed to resemble more to a kicked puppy. A horny kicked puppy. “Oh, that’s how you want to play?” Jin said with a teasing voice, leaning over Kazuya and stopping his laugh with his lips.
It was slow now, even if Jin had seemed to be impatient and to hurry to be as soon as possible inside of Kazuya. His tongue gently licked Kazuya’s lips, making him open his mouth once again to welcome that weird and fussy feeling which seemed to be giving the younger wings in that moment. His whole body trembled and Kazuya didn’t know why because Jin’s hands weren’t touching him anymore, both of them were placed on the counter, supporting Jin’s body. His heart started to beat faster when Jin tilted his head a little to deepen the contact between them, reaching deeper into Kazuya’s mouth but still with the same gentleness and carefulness that Kazuya didn’t know what to think of. He smiled into the kiss, finally realizing what was different, why everything seemed to be so strange from the beginning.
Jin had always been rushed and he had always only cared about his need, to satisfy his own desire. But now every move that he made, every touch that Kazuya felt or every kiss that Jin gave him… everything was meant to satisfy him. His moves weren’t full of love, maybe even far from it. But Kazuya could tell that Jin cared about him, that even if he was desperately wanting to get his own release and forget about everything else, this time he had put Kazuya on first place, thinking more about him, about how to make him feel good and drive him mad until he’ll finally lose it.
He didn’t know when Jin had managed to get rid of both of their pants because he was too engrossed into the kiss that seemed to be never ending. He finally opened his eyes to find Jin’s eyes observing his face, like he wanted to be sure that he isn’t making a mistake. He found both of his hands deep buried in Jin’s hair, holding it with a strong grip which definitely wasn’t comfortable and keeping his head close to his. Something pocked his stomach and Kazuya allowed himself a moment to breathe before he looked down to see Jin’s erection.
“Are you okay?” he heard Jin’s husked voice and Kazuya jumped, surprised by the low and almost uncontrollable voice. Why was he asking that? He should be the one to ask if Jin’s okay, seeing as he was beaten to death only a few days ago. Kazuya didn’t have any injuries, he was perfectly fine but even so, Jin was asking him if he’s okay. It was wrong, everything was wrong, but Kazuya couldn’t help not to be a little happy.
He nodded, after what seemed to be an eternity, and Jin smiled. Kazuya closed his eyes again when Jin leaned over him and they kissed for what seemed to be the umpteenth time and also the first time. He grinned into the kiss and decided to let himself fall, even if there wasn’t a safety net waiting for him or even an end to his fall. He had Jin’s arms, they were supporting him and the younger felt in that moment that it’s enough.
“Lie down.” He heard Jin’s husky voice again and Kazuya trembled only at the sound of it. He slowly nodded, not understanding what was Jin planning but wanting to let himself in the hands of the older. It felt somehow safe, even if Kazuya wasn’t sure that he’d feel the same after they have sex and his mind won’t be as clouded and confused as it was now. But even if it wasn’t real, even if it was meant to last only for an hour, Kazuya wanted to trust Jin and let the older show him the possibilities of their relationship.
Jin smiled gently and leaned over Kazuya, leaving a wet trail with his tongue from the younger’s lips, on his chin, moving and teasing his nipples and going down to suck his navel and make Kazuya giggle. He went even further and his tongue descended on Kazuya’s member, licking it slowly and taunting the sensitive skin with short licks and small touches. He sucked on the top of it and Kazuya moaned, unprepared at the sudden sensation that hit him. He tried to find something to hold onto, but Jin seemed too far away and there was nothing near him that could help him through his torture. He finally settled on trashing under Jin, bucking his hips in need of more friction and moaning shamelessly when Jin’s tongue traveled even further, finding Kazuya’s hole and burying itself into the hot and sweet cavern, Jin’s hands holding the younger’s hips up and his legs apart.
“Oh my God.” Kazuya breathed, feeling a million of new sensations how it hit him harshly, leaving him without breath, rationality and mind. He closed his eyes tight as Jin slowly started to work inside of his hole, licking around it and entering it suddenly, exactly when the younger was starting to feel a little more relaxed. He cursed, hating Jin for teasing him so merciless and loving him for the way he moved his tongue and used his lips to kiss the bottom of Kazuya. Jin’s hands were now stretching his hole, his fingers holding on Kazuya’s ass cheeks to have more room of moving. His tongue found the pulsing hole yet again and entered it, a finger now added to it and making the younger moan even louder, overwhelmed by the lust and need of being filled.
“You like that, don’t you?” Jin whispered against his hole, sending hot puffs of air and making Kazuya groan desperately. He couldn’t make any word and it was good because he didn’t want to reply to Jin, fearing that he’ll say the truth and admit how much he wants this. He cursed himself because he seemed to be wanting this even more than Jin, but Kazuya couldn’t keep his thought long enough because Jin entered another digit into his hole and now Kazuya had to swallow a cry of pain.
“I’m sorry, baby, are you okay?” Jin immediately raised himself and looked into Kazuya’s eyes, sensing the younger’s body tensing and trembling at the sudden invasion. He cupped Kazuya’s cheek and ran a finger over it, as if to sooth it, and when Kazuya opened his eyes, he found Jin’s gentle gaze adorning above him and watching him with care and concern. The glint of desire and lust was still there, but Kazuya knew and he could also feel in Jin’s touches what he wanted to say without words. “I don’t have any lube here so it’s going to hurt a little.” He then added, lowering his hand to brush on the younger’s body, trying to make him relax while his other hand was still buried inside Kazuya.
“Just do it.” Kazuya said, even if his words seemed a little forced, but it wasn’t because of the pain anymore but because of the desire filling him up again and making him forget everything about any kind of pain.
Jin nodded and removed his fingers from Kazuya’s hole, smirking when a whimper left the younger’s lips and his eyes searched for him to see what Jin was planning now. He saw him spitting on his hand, spreading the saliva on his fingers and bringing his hand back to Kazuya’s ass, sliding now easier inside and allowing Jin to scissor his fingers and finally start to stretch Kazuya properly.
“Come here.” Kazuya demanded, not wanting Jin to disappear again between his legs - even if it would be mind blowing - but wanting to see his face, to gaze into his eyes and watch his expression changing with every move of his, with every thrust Kazuya gave, pushing Jin’s fingers even deeper and making him moan, with every touch that he caressed the older with, making him close his eyes to enjoy the sensation and bite his lips when Kazuya’s nails would gently scratch his skin, with every kiss that they shared, battling with Jin’s tongue and winning over it, enjoying the smirk that Jin would show against Kazuya’s lips and savoring the sweet taste of everything that was Jin.
Jin obliged and their lips found each other again, fighting and trying to dominate each other into a fight of power which neither of them seemed to be able to let go, but in the same time wanting to let themselves fall into the sensation of their brushing tongues and burning skin. Jin’s hand found Kazuya’s and their fingers entwined as the older finally removed his fingers and settled his cock above the boy’s hole, looking at Kazuya and waiting for an okay. The other one slightly nodded, biting his lips and already feeling the sweet sensation of being invaded, cursing the fact that Jin was still taunting him and just pocking his ass, driving Kazuya crazy and making him want more. A small whimper of frustration escaped the younger’s lips, but before he could say anything, Jin entered him and Kazuya bit hard on his lower lip, drawing blood from it and not deciding if he should moan because of his desire finally being accomplished or scream because of the pain that came with it. He finally choose to just bury his fingers even more into Jin’s scalp and to bring him closer, kissing him like tomorrow was the end of the world, like this was their last kiss and they would never see each other after this, giving everything he had and receiving everything that was Jin, their mouths muffling their groans and growls and moans as Jin slowly started to move inside of Kazuya.
Jin’s hand settled on the back of Kazuya but that didn’t last long as he detached himself from the kiss and let his hands fall onto Kazuya’s ass, pushing on it and reaching a new angle in the boy’s hole and also making him scream harder. Kazuya was panting almost randomly now, slower when Jin’s pace was slow, faster when Jin hurried to finish only to stop not long after. It was a maddening game, a game which was slowly consuming the both of them and with every thrust of Jin’s or every push of Kazuya, everything seemed to disappear around them and only the sweet sensation of their joined bodies remaining.
They kissed again and this time Jin let himself fall into the temptation of Kazuya’s body, pouring all of his feelings and desire into the kiss, forcing his tongue into Kazuya’s mouth and kissing him hard and wet. His moves grew faster and he didn’t care anymore about the bruises that would definitely appear on the younger’s body because of the raw and animal way of having sex, searching only for his pleasure and wanting to find it quickly, before he explodes. He continued to hit that sweet spot inside of Kazuya’s hole, earning more screams of his name and more feverish touches on his body. When he came, Jin closed his eyes and glued his mouth to Kazuya’s, moaning and screaming into his mouth as the younger’s nails buried themselves deep into Jin’s flesh, bringing Kazuya to his release too.
And then everything stopped. Silence fell over them as both of them tried desperately to regain their breaths, Jin still leaning over Kazuya and circling his waist into a loose embrace. And only now he realized that something had been different about their loving this time. He hadn’t noticed it, driven by his desire and want and desperation of wanting to be with Kazuya, but now, when everything settled down, Jin discovered that he couldn’t stop the beating of his heart no matter how much time passed. He couldn’t breathe, something stopped him and made him powerless in front of Kazuya and when this thought made way into his mind, all kind of images from the last days also came with it, overwhelming Jin and making him feel like losing his mind.
It couldn’t be. But Jin couldn’t stop the words from escaping his lips and when he finally realized what he said, it was too late.
“I love you.”
*
It was beginning to get on his nerves, not that Jin wasn’t already sick of it all. It felt like he was running in circles in the whole country even if he was just walking back and forward through his living room, in a failed attempt to calm down. It wasn’t working, but he had too much energy to spend and Jin didn’t feel tired at all even if he had indeed been running down the whole town trying to find Kazuya.
It hadn’t worked. He always seemed to miss the moment when Kazuya came home, even if he had stayed an entire night to wait for the younger. He hadn’t been to college either because Jin had checked it too and his colleagues said that they hadn’t seen him since a couple of days ago and that was the last time he had seen the younger too. Jin had even tried to talk with Kazuya’s friends but it seemed that bad luck was on his side because he couldn’t find them either. And if they weren’t hitting any clubs… then Jin had even less chances of talking with them.
He was starting to get worried. What if something bad had happened to Kazuya? The last time they had seen each other… Jin had said something that surprised even himself. The feeling from when those words rolled off his mouth was still engraved in his heart and he couldn’t make himself get rid of it no matter how much he tried. It was the first time he had said ‘I love you’ to someone and actually mean it. It was the first time he had laid himself bare in front of someone and this thought made him also feel fear like never before. He was now completely vulnerable in front of Kazuya, but also in front of his enemies. Everyone knew that Kazuya is his and nobody dared to touch him, but… there were still some who still tried. Who wanted to hurt him. Who might have done it now.
He cursed and hit a chair with his foot, making it crash into the wall with a loud bump. He ruffled his hair in exasperation and looked once more at his phone, like he had done in the past hour, willing it to ring and tell him some good news. He hadn’t seen the younger in the morning after they had sex so Jin had suspected that Kazuya had already gone to college. He had waited for him the whole day, only to find out that no one is coming, just his stupid friends who wanted to mock him. He had tried to call Kazuya, but no one answered. He went to his apartment - hitting Yamapi because he was trying to stand in his way just for the heck of it, as Jin called it - but no one was there. There wasn’t even a trace of the younger.
That was two days ago.
“Come one, ring!!” he urged his phone, dreading even more the thought that Kazuya had been kidnapped because of him with each second that passed. He was sure that all the gangsters knew by now that he had risked his life for Kazuya and now they wanted to get revenge on him by using the boy. It was the dirtiest trick in the book, but also the most affective, Jin had to admit, because he was now losing his mind while wondering what the hell happened with Kazuya.
Finally, his phone rang and Jin didn’t waste a second and launched himself to it and answered. “Where is he? Who got him?” he asked quickly, already taking his jacket and searching his keys to go and rescue Kazuya.
“Jin, you’re not going to like this.” Yamapi said on the other line with a careful voice that only made Jin feel more frustrated with himself.
“Tell me!!” he yelled into the phone and he knew that his friend flinched at the sound of his voice, the anger and hate hidden in it.
“He’s in a club. He’s alone and he… seems to be looking for some company.”
Jin blinked, taking a few moments for the words to register into his brain. So Kazuya was fine, he wasn’t in any danger at all. He was just out to have some fun. To search for another man to fuck him all night!!
“I’m going to kill him.” were the last words Jin uttered before leaving his apartment and run towards the club where Yamapi was. He was already out of the block when his phone rang again with a message from Pi that contained the address of the club. Blinded by anger, the thought of taking a car or his motorbike didn’t even cross Jin’s mind when he turned right, clenching his fists and trying to calm down just a little bit. It wasn’t working.
He had never run so fast. And he had never felt his heart beating this fast either. He didn’t know the cause, if it was excitement for finally being able to see Kazuya again or if it was fury because the younger had hidden himself from Jin for these two days. The one thing he did know was that he was angry, he was boiling with anger and he wanted to see Kazuya right now and to assure himself that he’s alright. After that… to be honest he didn’t know. He wanted to kiss Kazuya because it had been so long since he last tasted those lips. He wanted to yell at him because he had disappeared for two days without a trace, without a word. And he wanted to…
He sighed and took a deep breath, pushing open the door to the club and coming inside. He advanced through the crowd, his eyes carefully searching for Kazuya’s thin form until he finally saw him. And that was when Jin finally exploded.
He marched to the younger boy and in a couple of seconds, he was already by his side, his hand clenched on the younger’s arm and his eyes staring at the other man that was talking with Kazuya. He’ll be damned if he lets this go easily! His grip was hard and his nails were digging into Kazuya’s skin little by little but Jin didn’t seem to notice it. He didn’t care anymore. He had sworn that he’ll make Kazuya pay if he finds him with another man. And it was more than clearly that Kazuya was hitting on this guy!!
“Fuck off.” Jin barked at the man, his voice not leaving any room for questioning and his eyes piercing into the depth of his soul.
He seemed mad and he seemed like he wanted to kill someone.
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