I just want to curl up in your bed. lay in your arms with my face nuzzled into your chest. I never want to get up, never want to leave. I'd stay there forever if you'd let me. I miss you so much, it's like we just broke up. like you just moved. it's the same fucking overwhelming emotion, the same exact pain. I need you, it's obvious. Josh, I love ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas, my friends ( Read more... )

I'm starting to become someone I don't like ( Read more... )

quit smoking. (i've smoked six cigarettes since the new year began. not exactly considered "quit" but i'm working on it.)

cut back on drinking. (ha, yeah, i just turned 21. good luck to me on this one.)

fit back into my size 5/6 jeans. (i've been working out... and i ride my bike to my classes, so that helps!)

stop saying "god dammit." (failed ( Read more... )

i can't decide on a new year's resolution;
perhaps it's because i need to change just about everything in my life.

i'm turning twenty-one tomorrow.

and i've been waiting, well, twenty-one years for this... but i'm not even excited.
something seems wrong with that.

i can, at this moment, say that i wouldn't change a thing about myself or the life i lead and actually not be lying to myself.

it's relieving.
i think i'm finally growing up.

does anyone else remember when you had to have a code in order to sign up for a livejournal account? like, a friend had to sign up, get their code, then pass a new one on to you? hahah. i don't know what made me think about it, but i just did. and i laughed aloud.

that was what, five or six years ago? maybe more?
yeesh.

the biggest mistake that i ever made,
but "i keep retracing these patterns."

i almost forgot this site existed ( Read more... )