lost my car. im broke. dads sick. trying to keep my mind.

My summer is coming to an end. I cant tell weather I am excited or sad to leave next Sunday. I guess there is a mixture of them both along with every other feeling a person could possibly feel. It seems like my summer here went by so fast, but when I think back to all of the people I have said hello or goodbye to, it really has been too long. Being ( Read more... )

Today I got this big burst of motivation. I want to write a book. I was thinking about how much I have to say and what I want to do with my life. I want to read. I really want to experience LA as much as I can when I get there. Really start researching and experiencing the things I love. I dont get out and experience life as much as I would like to ( Read more... )

I'm starting to get the same feeling that drove me away from Oregon a year ago. It's weird, I can only be here for a certain amount of time without feeling like something heavy is lingering all around me.

In the past 48 hours I have realized that we need to tell the people we love how much we love them. The people we love and hate all at the same time and even the people we bicker with whenever we are around them. Without those people in our lives, we wouldn't even exsist. It's so easy to brush the 'I love you's' off our shoulders when we don't feel ( Read more... )

Well, I lost 15lbs which seems unreal. I don't really know how I feel about it yet besides the fact that my cothes fit a little better. I am coming home in 3 weeks which is exciting. I am very excited to spend the entire summer in Oregon instead of just 2 quick weeks. It will be nice to have a little time away from school and California. Maureen is ( Read more... )

are you too nervous to be lovers friendships ruined with just one kiss
i watched you very closely i saw you look away
your eyes are either gray or blue im never close enough to say

but your sweatshirt says it all with the hood over your face
i cant keep starin at your mouth without wonderin how it tastes

To add to that last note, it just seems like the second I stepped into California everything has just been a disaster. When I got to San Diego the city caught fire and I thought I had to evacuate. Then my apartments almost caught on fire. Then I started getting rashes. When that finally went away I got sick and lost my voice for the first time. One ( Read more... )

California really is a recipe for a black hole. I feel like im falling apart. If the muscles in my right arm dont start working soon its going to be a problem. I never would have thought 5lbs would have done this to me. I keep replaying memories that havent happened yet in my head. It could be a bad thing. I like them there for now though.

As of right now, I absolutely have to get rid of this cold. It has really drained me out and taken away all energy and motivation. Makes me feel a bit down. I need to stop counting time.