so i went to my lovers house today. and he held me in his arms. kissed my neck. told me how he loved me and whispered other sweet words. he hopes to help dig me out of my sea of depression. or at least help me stay afloat. ive been pretty sick lately. stress makes me sick sometimes. ive been coughing a lot, so im trying not to smoke. its ( Read more... )

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence ( Read more... )

sitting here talking to alex payne. ive been really confused about life lately. things are so uncertain. i didn't really do much this weekend. i hung out with andrew on saturday and today. today we went to this lady's house who i cat sit for while she's out of town and did homework. unlike last night where we just said we were going to do ( Read more... )

today has included a strange array of emotions. Felt pretty physically shitty, pretty mentally good, for some part. School was boring, as usual. I had a meeting with david bryan and shelley about me dropping AP Spanish. David kept making weird-david-like-jokes that make him sound like he's on acid. He's like an adult with ADD. At one point i ( Read more... )

wow you, i love how someone actually thought they could break me and andrew up. I thought you were just being a sheep or whatever you wana be, but now I find out you are actually trying to be cruel. nothing as so petty could ever separate us. some people REALLY need to mind their own business ( Read more... )

just woke up.

fucken alex payne has my cell phone.

andrews coming to pick me up in a few mins.

didn't go to school today. im so fucken sleepy. i feel really weird actually. andrew's really sick. poor baby can barely talk. school's so shitty anyway. i have a drs appointment in about an hour. im so very bored. i cant even sleep. cuz my dad is driving me nutts. everything he does is like as loud as humanly possible ( Read more... )

yes soooooo haven't been up to much lately. yesterday I went to andrews house and his parents invited me to go on a ski trip with them. i told his mom only if we cood stay in the same room. she'd had one too many glasses of wine and said something about breaking rule #2 and then she was like "shhh if your father sees me smoking with you he'll be ( Read more... )

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Today just started out on a bad note. So andrew and I both sleep in for first period (we both had free), he comes to pick us up and im not ready, already making us late. So traffic is bad cuz it's raining and we get to school and someone (who turned out to be Sammy P.) was parked in his spot. so we drive over to yongs, get a spot, and get to ( Read more... )