The last few nights I have had some of the craziest dreams of my entire life. I have found it rather annoying to say the least. Past memories from long ago are flooding back to the forefront of my mind. It is as if every guy I was ever really close too i am somehow close too again. I know for sure they are not. I could hardly call them even my ( Read more... )

I'm just trying to make you sing, from inside where you believe, like it's something that you need, like it means everything. I'm just trying to make you feel that happiness is for real, that life is happening, that it means everything. I'm just trying to make you sing ( Read more... )

I think I am a bit depressed. It's like half of me is missing somewhere and I am in search for it. I want to go out and do something, but do not know where. I want to write a song, but do not know what I want it to be about. I want to sleep, but have no desire to close my eyes from the world around me. I want to go swimming in the ocean, but I live ( Read more... )

I miss drumming. That thought alone has ran throught my head about 1000 times over the past week. When I moved into my first apartment I gave my drumset to Sean. The sad thing is I am not content to just buy a cheap drumset just so I can play again. I want a kit that costs somewhere around $3,000. I just will not have that kind of money to spend on ( Read more... )

So I got to work at 7:30 this morning hoping it would be a fast day and I could get home and play with Tristan..no such luck. I am so thankful Kevin(a new volunteer) went w/ me all the to Morrow and back and then helped me with my work. He rocks! The college he goes to sounds pretty great, I miss college...ok I think I just miss MCC. I can't ( Read more... )

I have a new love in my life, his name you ask? Tristan, the greatest puppy of all time!

I am officially really excited about my trip to bradenton! I leave in 2 days!!!!! Anyways, its going to be the best trip thus far, I get to see Alex, Kevin and Meg which is amazing. I get to go to Busch Gardens for a day w/ Lindsey! I get to see Abby! Jon! Sarah! Kristin! and many many others! A possible movie night and I get to apoligize in person ( Read more... )

I have officially been to my very first rodeo, and actually had fun! I never knew what the cowboys did to the bulls and horses to make them buck and was very saddened to learn the truth. Thats just wrong! Anyways, time seems to be moving faster everyday which is a good sign. I am slowly returning to my normal andie self. I think work has helped a ( Read more... )

I wish I could sleep, just a couple hours would be nice. My mind is a blur of never ending thoughts. I want the thoughts to end. I always wonder what my life would be like if I did not make the decisions that I made. Then I regret even wondering. I made some very wise decisions and some really dumb ones. Somehow all those decisions brought me here ( Read more... )

It's nice to have a job again! Job's give a person a sense of purpose somehow. I mean you meet someone and its like "hey, whats your name? What do you do?". It is just nice to have an answer. Anyways, I get like a whole apartment off of the dog kennels(barn) as my "office". I pretty much work by myself all day, organizing and planning. Things I ( Read more... )