Comments | arterror: i know, i know...tortured soul.

arterror

i know, i know...tortured soul.

Feb 25, 2004 20:12

Recently, i had a rather disturbing conversation with my mother. Sitting on the floor of my "room" while working on a piece, her parked next to me attempting to reorganize my drawers, we slowly fell into the topic of art and art schools in my future. I began to ramble on about Maryland Institute College of Art (MICA), or how i might possibly end up ( Read more... )

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nineinchednails February 25 2004, 18:10:46 UTC

dont fish for compliments.! just playing boo, but really, i think i can tell good art from bad. and you are quite the talented one. tis amazing to see all this talent coming out of a little girl whos as cute as a button. you are very amazing at painting already, and will continue to get so much better as time goes along. i hate to see my old paintings. i have learned alot, and need to get on top of my shit. but. if your paintings look the way they do now, imagine how it will look in the next few weeks, and months to come, when you start getting comfortable and experimenting with medias. i cannot wait my little mowhawk hizuzu.!

<3

nineinchednails February 25 2004, 18:11:40 UTC

p-dot-s.
did you forget how much scholarship money our school gets. the harder you work, the more you have doors opened for you.

arterror February 25 2004, 18:19:09 UTC

i was nottt fishing for compliments in the least, i am generally insecure about my painting. i only tend to nice things from ms.A and maybe my mother sometimes. today, for example, i scared andrew's sister with the most recent painting i brought in.

Yeah monotoneargyle February 25 2004, 18:35:01 UTC

You should definitely try to get out of Miami, and don't forget you can always get a loan and stuff. but i know how you feel, a lot of times it seems i am selling my soul to the devil and all of my free time to get into college

Re: Yeah arterror February 26 2004, 15:35:44 UTC

ahhh
i know, i know..
im beginning to really despise school.

starstarstar February 25 2004, 19:15:14 UTC

youre very talented.

scholarships arent out of the realm of reality for you.

arterror February 26 2004, 15:33:52 UTC

=) thank you stacy.
you arent doing anything art related over there are you?

trustytrench February 25 2004, 19:19:45 UTC

dear miss vanessa,
whatever the fuck you do you just have to take everything with a grain of salt yeah i know my parents dont have any money at all saved up but that doesnt stop me from thinking that i have to go to mica or sva or any other art college that isnt in miami, i completely understand what you mean about suffering here, i feel stupid about it sometimes but it just seems like the whole reason i just keep on surviving here is because i KNOW i am going to leave and i'm sure you will too despite what your mother says. i wish i could see your work to say something about it but alas ive never seen it. good luck with this hmm goal? i'm sure you'll achieve

arterror February 26 2004, 15:32:44 UTC

well, thank you. i think i am sort of forced to "take everything with a grain of salt"...maybe it isnt such a bad thing, it takes the pressure off some what and it'll keep me from thinking about it too much.

by the way, who are you?
im guessing you go to DASH?

trustytrench February 27 2004, 17:18:55 UTC

humm yes i'm kimmy, i go to dash. alex robbie's best friend (assrat).. i tend to run a lot and that pretty much explains it(short, tan, glasses)

livesirenn February 25 2004, 19:51:19 UTC

woman, don't sweat it. my friend is going to ringling school of art and design in sarasota entirely on loans. she's super talented but she sucked in school so no scholarships for her. she really had to get away from her mega fucked up parents and art is her life. if you're set enough on getting the hell out of there, you will <3

arterror February 26 2004, 15:09:30 UTC

yeah, ringling is a pretty fantastic art/graphics school, she's lucky.

as for getting out of here, i cant see anything otherwise for my self. I dont know how i'd exactly do it, or live for that matter, but hell if im staying here.
by the way, why aren't you in an art school some where else in the country?

I'M A GROWN ASS WOMAN, DAWG livesirenn February 26 2004, 19:26:39 UTC

*sigh* oh, my emo life.

there is a buttload of reasons why i'm not in art school somewhere outside of miamii never took art in high school. i have never stuck with anything except for piano lessons because i change my mind about what i'm in love with every 10 seconds. i love art. but i also love to sing, act, write, take pictures, etc. i never cared about college in high school. it is just now that i am starting to really care about anything. i turned 19 in october and it's becoming very clear to me that i don't know my ass from my elbow. if i had tried to live on my own at college when i graduated high school at 17, i would've probably gotten myself into serious financial/academic trouble. i still don't know what i wanna do with my life so why would i blow all my money on art school if i could change my mind one day and decide to be a poli-sci major (highly unlikely, but you get my drift)? i am just now starting to learn what it's like to keep myself on a budget and have to work to support myself while trying to keep my grades up ( ... )