Right now I feel about 95% empty but the 5% that is left won't leave me. Some part of me is hanging on. numb and without any feeling or expression I go on each day, with fake smiles, fake laughs. I'm polite to people and rarely are people polite back. Who knows why. Maybe they see that I am fake. I haven't talked to a lot of my friends for a while ( Read more... )

i'm emotinally exhausted. and physically for that matter. the columbia orientation was excellent. i loved dorming there and i loved the campus. everything seems right. i'm glad to be going, hell i even made a few friends there. i have this three hour chem lab though every thursday i think at 4-7:30 and all the other classes i regestered are during ( Read more... )

long time no write. i'm moving to nyc this august. all summer i need to get in as much hours as i can at the movie theatre. and now that i have those hours i hate it. i had a new job offer at jcpenneys and theyd give me $7.75 where at the theatre i got $6.40. but then they offered me a "leader" position for $7 an hour and our manager keith said ( Read more... )

i'm a girl yeti'm not sure exactly how to answer when i've been asked this several times..
why do a lot of girls fall for or with the 'dorky' guys?

i've been disgusted with myself lately. i'm at 110lbs and i wanna be at least 100 but idealy about 95lbs. i started a diet again today. I had ( Read more... )

i got accepted for junior and senior year of college @ columbia university. i've toured the school before so i'm more than excited. it's an achievment of mine and a goal that i've accomplished and have studied my bum off for the past many years for. i have my placement tests on June 1 and orientation is the 24th and 25th ( Read more... )

horrible week. horrible day. i can say that its not worth trying to get along with my dad. seriously fuck my family. i can only get a long with nick. i always get short jokes. i always ignore em. sometimes they are funny. i dont care a lot of the time. thats 100% truth. im fine with my height. but it gets so goddamn annoying. and my older brother ( Read more... )

i still dont feel its right that alex is letting what others tell him or how they treat him disturb our friendship & let it punish me. yes ive been busy a lot lately, crap i mean i have class, work, plans with friends etc his schedule is opposite of mine. he wont pick up his phone. so i stopped calling him. why does he say he is happy being ( Read more... )

right now im mad, hurt and sad. the fact that i have pms and a lot of stress doesnt help. alex and i havent talked for a while us both being really really busy. hes been moody too. all i have to say is i try to be the bestest friend to him. i really want him as my friend. i listen to him all the time about all his complaints and whatever he will ( Read more... )

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