this whole week has felt like friday. im bored at work. i go out into the field monday for 4 years. my parents leave thurs night to chicago and come back tues. so this weekend should be very relaxing. i need to get a lot of shit done at my house so i can move in. i hate being alone....it sucks. its gonna get worse too soon when i move into my house ( Read more... )

umm snow then rain then warm then freezing!! its gonna be 54 tomorrow then the next day 23 then 15!!! wtf! ok ok so my cabs n countertops come this friday for my house. and im beginning to paint the house now. so umm carpet and tile and light fixtures and appliances and move in. so shit 2 weeks hopefully. then party!!! its gonna be rad finally ( Read more... )

Im waiting for you to flee the scene
As if you held in your hand the smoking gun
And on the floor lay the one you said you loved.
im waiting for that sense of relief
its strange, they are basically the same so i dont ask names anymore.

oh yeah thats a gay face for crazy!

im sorry we have to break up but i need you so much closer. but you dont want anything to do with this. youre not nice to me. i remember when you sang me a song and it didnt make any sense to me at all. it was around new years. it felt like we were falling in love again. i guess i can be stronger without you once i get rid of you in my head but ( Read more... )

bored and tired. at work and i wanna go home. the coffee is good today. im an idiot. but i was just lookin out for myself and im a hypocrite.

wtf is up with the weather? today is supposed to be 47, tomorrow 59, saturday 39, sunday 52, monday 46, tues 53, wed and thurs 45, fri 31 sat 36!!! haah i got the extended weather on yahoo. but the weather is fucked up!!! i wish it was summer.

i guess i should do a new one. im sick. its all thanks to jenn!!!! ummm xmas was pretty lame and new years will be the same. i probably wont drink cause i wanna get better. umm im at work, i have tomorrow off but ill be working at my house. i need coffee. 5 mins and you didnt answer. 5 mins and you didnt call back. today should be my xmas light ( Read more... )

oh yeah...im still trying to learn all this lj shit. its kinda confusing to me. oh well...i need a vacation. far away somewhere warm, not hot but warm. well 80s. is that hot? some guy at work has bells on for xmas. its weird. hes single but hes extremely happy. how can a single man be so happy? maybe its cause hes wearing the bells. maybe i should ( Read more... )

so im at work and im bored as usual.i need to get done with my house and move in and start my other job. my parents get on my nerves. i just realixzed theres too many emotions to pick from on this thing. i dont even know whats going on. i dont want xmas to come. i think im gonna skip it this year. well im gonna try. maybe ill just go to my house ( Read more... )

so my parents are going to stay at their condo in chicago this weekend so ill be home alone and i want company!!!! i only have one friend on here and yesterday was my first day so im pretty sure jenn will prrobably be the only one reading this, if she even does! but oh well gotta start somewhere i guess. yeah thats it for now i spose. oh yeah me ( Read more... )