You don't realize how broken you are until you start putting yourself together.

 "How can you be a beaner who doesn't like beans..?"

 So, caffeine does have an effect on me.

I was wrong.

They say ignorance is bliss.  I can see truth to that.  I can understand the need to be absolved from facing the human condition; the way it really is.  But at the same time, I am proud when I am not ignorant.  I am proud when I can diagnose myself.  I feel right when I know that I am wrong.  There is an aspect of maturity to that acceptance, that ( Read more... )

Heathrow was incredibly crowded, and I felt my heart catch in my throat as I stepped from the runway.  A summer blast wove its way through the crowd, encasing the lot of us in a claustrophobic sauna.  I could feel beads of sweat forming against my back, and suddenly feared for the state of my white dress.  It was a halter, specifically designed to ( Read more... )

 I GOT MIMI.

 I hate love songs.  I hate reading them, I hate hearing them, I hate seeing them.  I hate that it hurts.  It's just an adolescent ache, too.  It's senseless and embarrassing, and I wish I didn't feel anything.  But I do.  And I don't feel uplifted, or hopeful, or like I'm being sung to - and if I do, it's gone in a moment, and I've fallen off ( Read more... )

I have been re-reading Cracking the AP European History Exam.  It taunts me.  No, it really does.  With its off-white, rough pages and smooth title with the bi-racial butterfly (HAHA) on the cover, holding her fucking No. 2 pencil.   The trend of the standard No. 2 pencil has died.  We teens want mechanical pencils.  We want pens.  Keep your ( Read more... )

 "There is a hole in the world, which I constantly find myself walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night."  - Edna St. Vincent Millay

There is a hole in the world.  While the statement is likely to case the heart in a lead box of fear, there is no reason for alarm.  There are ways across this hole.  Bridges, every few miles, ( Read more... )

 they postponed my audition.

but they let me sleep in