audition today [:
first part of it, anyway

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god, i just want it.
I WANT TO BE AN ACTRESS.
NOW.
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slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile

i swear, billy joel wrote that about me

 i want to be an actress so fucking badly.

nothing burns like this.

i've got to go to bed before i really start to hurt.

 It's truly amazing.  No, it is.  I promise.

I have this idea that caffeine has no effect on me.  This is because whenever I drink a caffeinated beverage (generally limited to coffee and diet coke/diet dr. pepper), I feel nothing.  I am just as lethargic, if not more so, than before (and no, i don't have either ADD or ADHD.  nice try).

Today, I ( Read more... )

The house is quiet, but never silent.  There is always some noise - the furnace moaning on and off, the sound of a car blazing past, the gentle creaks and whines the floorboards make just to say they're alive.  Family is scattered around the town, and I am alone.  Not lonely.  Bored, maybe, but not lonely.  I've taken a break from Dante, who is ( Read more... )

we are doing rent.
we. are doing. rent.

wearedoingrent.

 There's a world out there.

There's a sun, and a moon, and greenhouses gases.

And I have nothing to say, really.
I'm just thinking aloud (figuratively).

make me an angel
that flies from montgomery.

please.

p.s.
eddie vedder is a god.

 everything i write sounds exactly the same.  it's frustrating.

i sound like i'm trying to be profound.  maybe i am?  
i sound like a douche.

but ben's the douche xD

I read somewhere how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong, but to feel strong.

"i married your father sixteen years ago today."

hmmm.

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the edge of reason

 I try to find beauty in things that don't deserve it. I try to see the world in a way that improves me as a person. I try to make myself better. And yet, I'm not actively doing these things. I think of them; i imagine them. I am the dreamer. That is all. I dream. I hope, I yearn, I feel - I dream. Is that all I've become? Am I incapable of doing ( Read more... )