My husband Nate and I met October 2011 at my cousin Ambers wedding. He had been seperated from his wife for a couple of years and I was seperated from mine since The beginning of the year. I found his ability to make me laugh very attractive. We only talked for a whole combined amount of time for an hour. When I went back home he was all I could ( Read more... )

We got to go to Kansas for my families Christmas after all. It was a pretty nice visit. The kids got more presents then they needed. My parents bought me a new set of pots and pans in a maroon color. Yay, getting rid of the hand me downs. Dad and I stayed up and talked once my mom, husband and kids all had gone to bed. We had a good talk, which is ( Read more... )

When I was a kid and a teenager I use to love winter, but I really am becoming a scrooge for the winter months all together. It is getting so cold outside. I managed to get the outdoor faucets winterized and the dogs house winterized. Now to just stay inside where its warm. At least I have lots of coffee, hot tea and cocoa. I also made homemade ( Read more... )

I feel like such a horrible person. I've lost me. I've lost my passion for writing of any sorts. Recently after a massive fight with my husband...i tore up every single journal i ever kept. I had them from ten years old until well about a 2 weeks ago. Something clicked within me. What the hell am I doing this for? I am not half the writer I want to ( Read more... )

Hello...me again. I didnt go anywhere, as I have mentioned I don't have good internet service so I can only get on when I have good internet service like wifi.

Sitting here at the Oklahoma cancer Center with my sister in law Kim. They found a large lump on her breast and on her ovaries. There is nothing I can do but be her emotional support.

The ( Read more... )

On my way back from picking my daughter up from her dads and as the husband drives, and internet service is good,I write. Sadly the Equinox keeps overheating horribly. So every 25 miles we have to pull over and let it cool down. Someday we will afford a trip to the mechanics.

Besides car trouble, we have a leak in our bathroom drain that causes the ( Read more... )

Yep, the title pretty much sums up the last few days. Its been bullshit after bullshit. Fighting with the husband, kids being pissy and we all of a sudden have an influx of gnats in the house. I cant win for losing. All i want is chocolate, wine and a good book. Maybe a cozy fire too. Oh now I am in lala land. Dream on!

I was first born to my carpenter dad and waitress mom back in August of '86. Followed by three siblings, Jennifer, Jared and Tiffany. My dad was a "christian" and raised us as such as well, until he started doing drugs, getting drunk, and having numerous affairs. One day he tried to commit suicide, survived and since then claims athiesm. He put us ( Read more... )

I have been quite busy the last few days and by the time I thought I should write an entry, I am exhuasted and pass out instead ( Read more... )

Well, here is too another try at journaling online. I really suck at it on paper and so maybe this time I can keep up with this, or so I hope ( Read more... )