My room is finally mine. For reals. All my stuff, the way that I want it (for the most part, anyway--there will always be restrictions because of the amount of shit that I've managed to accumulate over the years). The initial cleaning/organizing/setting up part is over. Now I have to still clean out my drawers and stuff, unpack, and then ( Read more... )

i'm not giving up this time.

My mouth blooms like a cut ( Read more... )

i don't think i've actually looked forward to something so much in forever. usually i don't like to have high expectations in an effort to avoid disappointment. mostly because disappointment is one of the worst feelings in the world. but it's different now. i feel like it's ok to expect a lot, because there's no way that this won't be good. and i'm ( Read more... )

i wish that i never thought about anything. then i wouldn't worry about anything. or notice when things were bothering me. or made a mistake. or made a shitty judgement call. especially about a person. especially when it's already too late.

i am a ...

nevermind. i was about to write a whole long spiel about how i suck, and i ruined this and that and blah blah blah.

but someone just saved me :)

why do i keep doing this?

note to self: when bored, don't read old e-mails. you will end up very sad. bored is far better than sad. get a fucking hobby!

"I don't know how long ( Read more... )

It's funny how quickly one's (aka my) mood/mind/heart/everything can change on a daily basis. Hell, even minute to minute. I'm such a mess. But probably just for the moment ( Read more... )

I had no choice but to hear you ( Read more... )