Can't sleep, I've had far too many ups and downs today. I don't really feel like writing about it, either. But given the severe lack of other...ventures...here I am ( Read more... )

        I haven't written anything in a long time. Unless you count papers for school, which I don't. It's hard to find the motivation (or maybe it's courage I need?) to sit down and put pen to paper..or even fingers to keys in a word document. I always have been my worst critic and even after all these years, I haven't found the self-esteem to ( Read more... )

I told myself that if I started this back up I was going to have to post something in it at least once a day. Well oops...I guess I already broke that rule. But then, I'm all about breaking rules lately it seems. Mine, as well as others.
     Of course, in reality life goes about in a fairly normal pattern. Wake up, get the kids off to school, then ( Read more... )

It's been an incredibly long while, but I'm thinking of starting this back up, if for no other reason than to have a place to write down and gather my thoughts. I can't seem to find sleep very easily these days, except at the most inappropriate times and thanks to the invention of the iPad I can now do stuff like this in bed. A few quick updates ( Read more... )

I've started to write again. Bits and pieces of prose finding their way into my head. I totally blame you, and though you'll probably never see this, I thank you. If only this could never end....

And to think just a week or two ago I was thinking of posting one simple line to here.
Dear Journal,
I'm lonely.

Not anymore. If only it could last.

My new latest craze......STEAMPUNK!!!  Although, I think I've always been obsessed with it, to a degree, I just never knew it had a name and a genre and a subculture all to itself. If I had unlimited resources (meaning money, my least favorite thing in the world) I'd so change all of my furniture, clothes, electronics, decorations...everything, ( Read more... )

I just happened to be flipping through channels on TV last night, looking for something to watch for just a little while before going to bed. We have HBO, and a title amongst the HBO channels caught my eye, "Boy Interrupted." So I open info on it, and read that it was about a 15 year old boy with early onset bipolar disorder that had committed ( Read more... )

Happy anniversary. Wish it weren't the case of growing apart, but it seems that that is exactly what has happened. I still miss you, all the time. I miss being thirteen, being so carefree with you. I miss our being completely naive about just about everything. But what else can we do? Life took us both in different directions, and unfortunately it ( Read more... )

I can't decide whether or not to circumcise Hayden. For the most part every bit of me is screaming "no, don't do it, leave him the way he's meant to be," but like 99% of Americans out there, I suffer from the fear that I may be setting him up for a lot of mental hurt and ridicule from his peers if I don't. I know that that is a very silly reason to ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...

Ah well, it's just another day.

I'm still trying to recover from the whole NIN thing. All I have to say is NOTHING can stop me from seeing NIN live this year. NOTHING.