petition to retro-actively withdraw.

fuck. why do things just keep getting worse.

fuck it all. i quit. i give up. i've had enough.

i wish that things would get better but they do not seem to be heading in that direction.

My friends are playing the "whose life is worse" game. I am entitled to be upset about what is going on in my life right now. But i guess it isn't worth their time to understand that. I am worried and upset but that dosn't mean anything because "it could be worse" and they do not actually believe that my parents are serious ( Read more... )

i have no idea what i want to do with my life thus no idea what to major in and thus no idea what courses to sign up for.

help?

over break i realized something about my family and my life. my mother has given up on me as a person. she detests just about everything that i am. that i have become and want to become. even the things she doesnt know about she hates.  it's a hard realization to come to. and when your friends families seem to like you more than your own, it hurts ( Read more... )

lost in paradise
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4 pills
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a cute boy
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awesome people
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some good weed
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a good night/morning

more after i comedown, sleep and wake up.

this is bliss.

the new anitbiotics that i've been put  on look like the red pills from the matrix. [no, i'm not a dork. whatareyoutalkingabout ?]

i cannot draw worth shit.

as much as i detest chemistry, i love chemicals. the make for interesting evenings.

such a chill trip. i got to that place for a while where things were odd and it really didn't matter at all. i wish my mind would be that quiet more often. and without drugs.

facts ( Read more... )

i need new friends. or ones that include me sometimes. i love being the outcast. i love it so fucking much. i've tried so fucking hard to be a good friend to all these people and just about everyone has managed, in some indirect manner to make me feel like shit. and it's not their fault it's mainly just my perception of situations and how i react ( Read more... )