well i had surgery last thursday i ahve lost alot of wiehgt and i am in a state of mind that has no feeling . everything is numb to me and i don't know how to react to it.

well yet again my ehart has been crushed i am begging tot hink i am not meant to be happy

john and i are over

well John and I have been together a month and 2 weeks tommorow. and it has been the best two months of my life. I am so in love and so happy. when i think about him i smile. and when i see him i get htis feeling that i have never expiernecced in my whole life. its like i am floating and i am never going to come down ( Read more... )

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i am such a bum i didn't come to school agin today but i do have an orthodontist appointment! so its a good excuse. i have finally accepte the fact htat i am falling in love with john! he is the greatest! but for some reason it is hard for me to trust him and mandy being around each other it isn't as much as him tha ti don't trust its her. she ccan ( Read more... )

Well i didnt go to school yesterday or today! but i am startign to feel better. John hurt his back at work yesterday and now he is like on 3 different kinds of pain killers. i have fallen in love with this man. he makes me feel like no other guy has ever made me feel and i don't know how to explain it!@ all i know is that when he is not here i don ( Read more... )

JOhn just left we fell asleep on the couch holding each other it was the most sweetest moment i have had in a long time. he makes me smile and makes me feel like i am the luckiest girl in the world. I am so lucky to have a guy like him! i mean he came over for a lil bit after he got off work today and then he went home to spend some time with his ( Read more... )

well i am so confused likfe is gong by so quiockly and one day i am in love with this someone and the next i hate to love him! and then i just want him to hold me in his arms! i am starting to get so numb from all the quick changes of emotions

OMG am i just a girlt hat every guy is like hmm lets make hr htink we really like her and th en BAM crush her! i guess so cause john went along with all the other guys and hten treid to pull the stunt lets be freinds so i guess we are friends ( Read more... )