i don't know what to do anymore. the one person that actually makes me happy doesn't want me around anymore. i cry over how much i like him and i want him to be part of my life. he's the only person that i feel i can tell anything to. without him i don't know what i'd do. i can feel him slipping, and my world is falling apart. he doesnt act like ( Read more... )

the trip was pretty good i guess. could've definately been better, also could've been worse. i've been so stressed out lately, i dont know what to do with myself anymore. with school work + music + sports, i really have no time to do anything anymore. it feels like people are changing, and i dont know what do do about it. i dont know what i'm doing ( Read more... )

so, tomorrow i leave. i guess im kind of excited, but not the overwhelming type like your first trip to disney world. the only thing that i'm happy about is that aj is coming with me, and that we're going sky-diving. besides that, i'd basically rather stay home (oh yeah, i want a tan too). i'm not going to be able to see anyone for 8 days, plus i'm ( Read more... )

i dont think that i've ever cried so much during a regular day, never mind a holiday. the past two days seem like they came straight from a nightmare. christmas eve, we went to my grandpa and step-grandma's house... a family tradition for ever. the effects of the surgery that my grandpa had are starting to clear up, but he still has partail ( Read more... )

i know it's been a while.. but i'll try to catch up as much as i can. track's, well.... track. i have to work a lot harder this year to get where i was last year. but hopefully i throw 30' by the end of the season. school's ok. it could be better. i dont know what the hell i'm doing in math this quarter. nothing seems to be making sense. and ( Read more... )

finally. :-D hmm.. track meet last night. i wouldn't consider it one of my best meets, but i did ok. heather's sweet 16 last night was a lot of fun. i went with kt and we tore up the dance floor, right kate? haha. i broke up with rob. i guess that that could be considered a positive, because lately, whenever i would think about him, i'd get all ( Read more... )

it seems like whenever i write in here, it's usually always the shitty things that are going on. :-\ i'll try to work on that. lets see.. can we say a little confusion is in the air? i dont even know if i have a freakin boyfriend anymore. he never returns phone calls, we havent hung out in 3 weeks, i feel like i'm just a friend that he can kiss ( Read more... )

why is my life like this? why do my parents have to fight constantly? why is my family ripping at the seams, and the only thing that keeps us together is the act that gets put on in front of company? why am i feeling that rob doesn't care anymore? why??? i can't take it anymore. it seems like for at least the last 2 weeks, i've had to cry myself to ( Read more... )

it's been almost 2 weeks since i've written in here. i guess i kinda just forgot. lets see.. what has been going on. school is pretty good. all of my grades are good, except ap euro. i mean it's not horrible, but it definitely could be better. rob :). i am so happy right now with him. i wasn't so sure if i should go out with him because of what ( Read more... )

hmm.... lets see here. where should i start? i'm going out with rob :-D. i'm so happy because i really like him, and i don't think that i ever stopped liking him. it's a little weird because it just kind of happened on halloween. and then it was like the next day we were kinda going out, and then saturday we were. no complaints there, lol. ( Read more... )