So tired of this life. I am so tired of guys. I am so tired of him only comingg around when he feels like it. I'm OVER you. You had two years to do sometihng and you lost it. Good job. And now I meet people that only want to be friends just so i can be a weekend call. I'm sorry im not a slut like what youre used to. Goodbye.

Girls with awesome boyfriends brag to me. When they know that my situation is not the same. I do know that that is my fault and I just need to let go. But those who have been in love should understand the hearts resilience and it will go to the point of being physically ripped out of your chest before it can move on ( Read more... )

it's funny how some horrible, unwanted, hurtful, sad things could bring two people together ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting in my room filling out an application to a summer program at the Nebraska College of Law. I'll be gone for a month doing very law things with the programs guarantee of an immediate acceptance into any law school I want. Great! for my career. But being gone a whole months leaves me with no opportunity to take summer classes...which is ( Read more... )

It's finally hit. That breaking point where nothing seems to matter anymore. and nothing is happy. at all. I'm there. I haven't been happy for a long time but I just kind of dealt with my feelings..talking to my friends about it...tryiing to keep my head up. But today. I didn't want to get up. I came back from classes and slept for 2 hours. and ( Read more... )

You are slowly and steadily breaking me down to nothing. and the sad part is is that i'm letting you. I'm allowing you to turn me into someone I am not. A quiet nobody.

I need to break this control before I cant find me anymore.

I am scared to death of being hurt again. Once again I have given away my heart and am trusting him to not cut it up and throw it back in my face. I'm afraid that this is a lie. and although he thinks I've committed myself... part of me has not ( Read more... )

College just one big learning ground.. not just academia but about life, friends, boys, love, parties, alcohol, lies, one night stands, broken hearts, living on your own, homework (a Lot of homework), and probably meeting the most shallow people out there ( Read more... )

Wow. I'm updating on LJ. Not too much has happened to me other than sometimes I can't stand crazy friends that I don't talk to anymore. I hate it when Justin gets upset when I don't go over to his house when he wants me to. I hate it that I can't talk to Michelle due to her not wanting to talk to me and hanging out with other people. Joe Luna and I ( Read more... )

i feel incapable. I feel that no one trusts me. I feel that everyone worries about me. I feel that no one gives me enough credit. I can live on my own. I can be independent. I can be successful. please. have a little faith in me. give me encouragement. not warnings.

I'm not unfaithful. I'm not crazy. A little obsessive maybe. but it's me.