He started mailing her parts of his body. The idea started when he had to get a wisdom tooth pulled. Naturally, he asked to save the tooth. When he got home, he examined it. It was huge like his hand. He couldn't believe that sucker came out of his head. He almost felt proud that he had a gap in the back of his skull now. He thought of what he ( Read more... )

You know the time where you say to yourself that you've never felt this bad before? But you say that every time. The pain is real. How do you guage your desperation? What do you do in those situations where you're held captive and slave to your crashing emotions? Times where you make a pathetic fool out of yourself. A long time ago, I knew a girl. ( Read more... )

I don't give a fuck about you. No, I'm not looking at you. I'm not undressing you with my eyes. I don't think about what you might look like naked. I would prefer it if you kept your clothes on. I don't think about what sex with you would be like. I don't want to play this game. I don't want to have anything to do with you. I purposly look away as ( Read more... )

This room has no chairs. I sit on the floor. I like to be below the windows as much as possible to avoid being seen. I communicate with myself, I guess that's why I write so much. It passes time. I figured out at an early age that it was better to be able to stand alone. Thoughts are always more clear with a minumun of human contact. The truth is, ( Read more... )

I have figured out the way I want to die. I think of different ways all the time. I have put alot of thought into this. I don't want to go out from old age. I dont want to just fade out. I dont want people to be able to walk by me and pat me like a fucking dog. Suicide is intense but not the way I want to be remembered. It's not radical enough. ( Read more... )

The best way I've found to deguise myself is to seemingly reveal everything about myself to them. When they think there is no more to get from me, they leave me alone and stop thinking about me. That's when I become free to do what I want. I'm no longer curious to them and I bore them because they think they have all I have to offer. A long time ( Read more... )

The crowd gathered around the body and took everything they could. Clothes, watch, wallet, gold fillings. They left happy. The vultures came and consumed the flesh until they were full and flew away screeching with delight. The insects came and picked the bones clean. The sun bleached the bones white. Then the skeleton got up laughing and walked

I work to keep the shadows from my room. I don't live in the present or think of the future. Neither have anything to do with me. I subsist on slowly decaying screams and fading horror. Rope burns of humiliation, failure and shame. So many nights I have spent walking the streets thinking of one great thing I can do before I die. I want to do ( Read more... )

I threw myself off the chair I was sitting in. I compelled myself to the floor. I am below the windows. I can no longer take the view. I'm on my knees staring at a dirty carpet. My parents are blown out of existence and I know no one. I'm trapped and sick under the cancerous skies. I can remember little of my past. All I can remember clearly are ( Read more... )

I can't change or hide what I am even if I wanted to. Interrogation wouldn't be neccessary, I'm branded in every possible way. It's the road I took that made me what I am. It's impossible after a certain point to go back to a previous way of life, a previous way of thinking. It's no longer an option. This makes things simple, if not calming. I ( Read more... )