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[ashluvsinuyasha]

well i haven't really don't much lately other than go to work, and come home, and go back to work. i don't know if i really like that or not. its like i practically live at work now. and i have to do so much on my own time too. i think it could get better, but i hate the hours and i hate the fact that i can work a 12 hour shift and not even get

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[angelo_ears]

Ashlie I love you. Whatever happens with Adam I'm always here ok? Please don't kill yourself, it's not worth it. I would probably have to kill myself too if you did.

If I had enough money I would move in with you somewhere so you could get away from all of that. Maybe without you there everything will be better for him. He'll miss you and he'll want to come live with you. And then maybe he'll finally realize how fucking retarded his mother really is. I seriously hope this works out, but just remember that if it doesn't, you always have me. I'm not going anywhere.

I would really love to go over there and shoot the fucking bitch in the head. She has no right to say anything like that about you. Or about your mom. She deserves to die and if I wasn't so scared of going to jail (hehe) I'd kill her myself.

I just can't beleive Adam would do that to you.. I'm so sorry. :( I love you. Don't forget that.

[ashluvsinuyasha]

I'm sorry if i scared you. when i mentioned suicide it wasn't so much out of contemplation, but i just wonder sometimes, and slightly daydream. sometimes i wonder if the same things i fantasize about, which mostly involve murder, are fantasized about by Linda as well. And then i wonder if i have just turned into a major head case, and if my jokes of this woman driving me insane aren't very funny, but my trying to turn a fearful reality into humor.
i don't think i could really bring myself to do something so drastic in either case.
i know that you'll be there. trust me. i love you too.
(and if i ever did want to commit suicide I'd call you first, because I'd be too chicken shit to go on my own. lol)

see me trying to turn it into humor again? teehee.

[yumemirufukai]

Oh hon...hang in there. No matter what happens, I'm here...I know I suck at keeping in contact but feel free to call me anytime. ~big lj hug~

[ashluvsinuyasha]

*takes hug*
mwahaha
its mine now. ^.^

[yumemirufukai]

yay! everyone needs to take posession of a hug occasionally ^_^

[hiro_kagegausui]

i hope you dont mind my interjecting... as far as the whole killing your self and a few other people go... im with you all the way... i have a list going myself... starting and ending with myself

[ashluvsinuyasha]

ok so.
you guessed exactly where we were all sitting. i dont think i like that.
and that glazed over look... i know exactly what you mean.
but i don't know so much about any of this being because Adam was sheltered. more like trained. Linda might have told you this to point out that there was a problem but in a way that made her seem alright. made it seem like she was just too good of a mom, and that messed up her kid a bit

[hiro_kagegausui]

sometimes sheltering a kid can also mean training them, and again i think that has to do with how his Dad and Linda interact with eachother... i might have nothing to do with that in the end... i just hate seeing someone take something so personally when they were just thrown into an allready existing problem...