now whenever ppl talk abt weddings i feel sick. i feel like throwing up. i feel like having a stroke. i feel like slashing myself. i feel like shit.

what the fuck is wrong with me?!!!! isnt it suposed to be a happy thing?! serious! why is the experience so shitty?!! omg. i am gonna take a break frm all these.

but.. yes a big but... the bf doesnt ( Read more... )

sad sad saddddd day. i'm tired. i'm fat. i'm angry. i'm lazy.

i dint even try to clean my messy room. its really messy, i'm not joking at all. in such a bad mood too.

my life is not in order. chaotic. need to get away.

i think the 1st step is to clean my bloody room. get it in order so i can think much clearer. but i'm vry tired. vry vry vry. sigh ( Read more... )

the truth is, cats live a vry vry vry pampered and long life. i think the bf wont like my fluffy living the same hse. but i did plan that i'll only take in another cat once fluff is gone. not just 1, cos i think atleast 2 is ideal as i see cat having thier own kind around would be good for them. but my future cats would be gays to cos i really love ( Read more... )

never add ur bf in twitter, LJ or other online thing then fb. asshole. just cos my phone died n we havnt seen each other for TWO FREAKING DAYS!! TWOOOO. DUA!!! how was it i survived the 6 mths seperation?! my personal secret: I REAAALY DON'T LIKE TO SEE HIM TOO MUCH. MUAK SEY! i'm not the typical girl tt can DIE W/O SEEING OTHER HALF FOR 9 hours! ( Read more... )

other than the title, i'm doing work for a friend. i shldnt have accept but i guess cos i'm too nice n Stooopig to realize that the same thing wont happen if i were in her shoes. hmm. anyway. went to and old sch of mine n met n KNEW it was that DAMN chick tt liked my fiance. i saw her n i was thinking is this that stpid stickgirl? my gut says yeahh ( Read more... )

Why is life soooo LIFELESS? why must we have $?! isnt everything free in the 1st place? think about it? when adam n eve entered this world HOW THE HELL DID $ come about? how the hell are we suffering without our own land and trees n free food god gave us? FOR FREE? who the hell gave these ppl rights to sell things to us when in the first place its ( Read more... )

homework NOT done. y? because i nvr learnt from life lesson to not procastinate. in the train to "school" and i'm wide awake. i woke up this morn without my stupid alarm clock. n shit i forgot to turn the off button. in 4 hrs time it will ring n my whole neighbourhood can hear it. shld msg my bro. anyway i'm sitting infront of a girl in the train ( Read more... )

have a chinese friend with a baby daughter, she's changed. from good to, vry stressed. she married last yr, and now contemplating (pardon if the spelling is wrong) of divorce. well she did say she nvr felt so solid on divorcing the other half. she was telling me the problems she faced n how aft the wedding day things got from ok to a nightmare. the ( Read more... )

life, so far, is making me broke. i have an urge to do part time designing but why should i? sigh. anyway i just saw mr you noe who. he dint see me though. i was thinking to myself, he is so kental! i still have the bf. more awesome than ever. he never fails to make me mad n entertained all the time. entertainment is a huge factor. i try imagining ( Read more... )

ok its vry bad to hav ur bf join in tweet as i can't tweet some stuff. 1stly, the bf may have done something tt he shldnt. HE SHLDNT HAVE COME N KAYPOH MEET ME N GF at her bridal fitting. kay maybe i m bitter cos we ended the day bad today. HE may have told the future MR gf's bf abt all her past relationships. hmmm nice job mr big mouth. n now my ( Read more... )