i miss you.

sometimes i'll think of you ( Read more... )

Is she ready to know my frustration?
What she slippin' inside, slow castration
I'm a riddle so strong, you can't break me
Did she come here to try, try to take me

Did she call my name?
I think it's gonna rain
When I die

Was it something I said, held against me?
Ain't no life on the run, slowly climbing
Caught in ice so she stares, stares at ( Read more... )

I really dislike having a really bad feeling hit you ( Read more... )

Justin and I are getting closer.

We text every motherfucking day.
And it's good.

He makes me happy, he loves animals, he's silly and weird.

He doesn't drink or do drugs or escape. His band is his outlet.

I forget what it was like to know and like healthy people.

And I am happy.
The nightmares are now just a chapter of the past, and I don't even feel that ( Read more... )

Can you even feel cancer growing inside of you?

i'm not okay.

but just for show, i'll say i am fine and i never cared.

i never meant all that much to you.
people say nice things but i know im just some quiet shy girl that will just die of cancer.
and maybe that will rattle you but really i think it wont do anything at all.

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No matter how many times that you told me you wanted to leave
No matter how many breaths that you took, you still couldn't breathe
No matter how many nights that you lie wide awake to the sound of the poison rain
Where did you go? Where did you go? Where did you go?
As days go by, the night's on fire

Tell me would you kill to save a life?
Tell me ( Read more... )

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Okay.

I have been thinking.

Yep.

It's been a weird 6 months. I've felt a lot of things.
I know if you're upset and you just stay in a lot, you always see that person in your mind. There's nothing to take it off, the edge.

But how can you even explain that when things are okay,
like:
you're in a movie theater,
eating a burger,
curled up on the couch reading ( Read more... )