life update: It sucks ( Read more... )

How I am supposed to feel, I have no idea ( Read more... )

confusion is a state of mind that I find myself caught up in. Ive wasted so many years being unsure. Unsure of my abilities as a person. Unsure of the friends I had and what I really meant to them. Unsure if I were to pass away right now...that I would have old friends come to pay their respects ( Read more... )

With my lack of clarity in life I decided to put this together in the last two hours. Its not very good but I find strength in it.

so the rockapella concert just ended and im here updating my lj on my phone while i wait for scott to come sign my acapella book. The concert was amazing and they are so much better live. I wish i could have shared this moment with someone. Goin back to u of i soon. Scotts here!! Bye

its been almost 3 weeks of living in an empty house....i wonder when she will come back ( Read more... )

Its weird to be here ( Read more... )

trying to find sober fun is a bitch. i havent been home before 2 in about two weeks now.

i got fired.

cool.

im lookin for a new job i guess.

its two in the morning and im trying to teach myself a song on the piano.

piano is so much harder than i thought.....i cant have two seperate thoughts at once.

2 bars down.

long ass night.

fun as hell, but long.

must stay up another hour to call off of work