i don't know what it is, but i find myself so lost and spacy lately, evertime i stop doing something, i start to think of him... i can't understand why i feel this way, it's not that he's this great guy, or he's everything that i want in a man, but the total opposite... why do i care so much? why do i hurt so much? why? why? i can't seem to ( Read more... )

he hasn't called at all, i know that i told him to leave me alone and not to call me anymore, but he usually *never* listens to me!! but now.... :-( it's been 4 days and I'm going out of my mind... I can't stop thinking of him... I can't seem to sleep, everytime I think about Sunday's drama, I get so upset and just don't want anything to do with ( Read more... )

well, it's been 3 days since we last spoke, and i'm feeling like crap! i've been so empty and lost lately, like my mind is somewhere else... it's tough trying to be stoic when you care for someone so damn much!!! uuuugggghhhhh (frustrated) he's so ignorant, insensitive, stubborn, obsessive and shallow, and yet I find myself yearning for him??? what ( Read more... )

This is my first entry on this site... Well, it's happened again, another fight w/ my Beau. This time it involved his crazy family... It was totally uncalled for, and definitely offensive to me! *uuuuggghhhh* I am completely shocked to know that there are some people in this world that are so outrageously ignorant and completely self-absorbed! Like ( Read more... )