this summer has been alright. i finally have my priorities straight. music has been consuming my everything. EVERYTHING. EVERYTHINGGGGGGGG. EVEYRYRYHTHTHTTHITITNGINGINGINGINGIGNGINGINGING. and i wouldnt have it any other way. it makes me so happy. i wish i could date music in human form.

i love music. GOD. I LOVE MUSIC.
it is THE BEST thing that has EVER happened to me.

we're over. he broke up with me and told me it'd be better if i were dead. why can't i meet a guy who's in love with me? who loves me for me? i want to meet a musician. i want to meet someone who is so in love with music they cry listening to it. i want to fall in love and not be able to move. i need someone who takes my every thought and runs.

why did i ever let someone tell me music shouldn't be my life?
seans really hurt me. i can't tell him, though. he said i'm too expressive. gkhdfg.

i'm so incredibly devoted to music right now. more so then ever.........
seans really upset my time is going to that.

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i can't sleep. sean called me and told me he expected me to call him this morning to wake him up, but i slept in and he was pissed. he told he doesn't know why he's dating me. fkjghkdfgjhdkjfg. this sucks.

i gave sean a huge kiss today. he told me hes embarrassed of me.

sean and i have argued a lot lately
he told me it'd be better if i just wasnt in his life and i was a huge mistake. ive been crying a lot. i thought he cared.

happy thanksgiving
seans in town
but ive had no action

which is so incredibly depressing
maybe later today?? =]