well i have an apartment now, all i have to do is fill out the application. its a nice little place that i can call a home for a while. talked to the owner last night and he is cool. we talked about what i needed to make my stay there more pleasant and i gave him some ideas like having a rail in the shower and that kind of stuff. i asked him ( Read more... )

aaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh

ok now that thats out of the way.....

T, you are the the most beautiful woman on the face of this earth and you have me entrapped by your beauty. Nothing compares to your smile or your touch. Remember today and forever that I love you.

when is enough enough? i think it was in the movie "the mexican" or something like that. think about it. if you love someone and you have a commitment when is enough enough? well i have come close to saying that is enough or thats the final straw but my love for my wife and my family and my faith in God is what keeps me going every day. I will ( Read more... )

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*sigh* well i think i know what set her off. she found 2 more of my videos i have been trying to find to distroy. i saw them this morning when i was getting a shirt to wear for work. i destroyed both of them. i just want be free of that demon!!!! every time i think there is nothing left something rears its ugly head and i have to go through ( Read more... )

you know....i really do love my wife. i dont want her to be mad or upset but something tonight set her off and i dont know what i did or what i didnt do. im tired of being the bad guy because im not. i guess i will just continue to take it day by day and continue loving here even tho there are some bad days. there are good days also and i hope ( Read more... )

well i looked at some apartments yesterday and i got myself a few applications. after that i went to perkins to do my workbook for my support group and did my devotions and spent some time reading my bible and praying. dwire met me there and we had a good time talking about things. its nice having friends that really do care about you. i can ( Read more... )

i cant believe how beautiful my wife is! i went and saw her and the kids for lunch (christopher was snoozing tho so couldnt wake him up and give him hugs and kisses) but i did get to see alexia and she read me a story about mr. tickle (she cant read but she sure could spin a good tale) it was very nice. my wife was in agood mood and it was sooooo ( Read more... )

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i miss my kids....all 3 of them! and i miss my wife :-(

i really miss my family and being able to be with them when i come home for work.

God why didnt i listen to you before???