its so depressing to think about this.

all i know to say is that i dont know what else to do

they say they are my friends. they are all like ooooooo drew cheer up

but they dont care

ive gone out of my way to care

i cant even begin to count the times ive ruined my day intentionaly just so i could do something for someone.

i read their livejournals.
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i miss lara.

i miss being able to write

i miss being young and just not having to care

i miss my life

i miss myself

i miss being hugged

i miss feeling warm

i miss not being made fun of on a daily basis

i miss Al

i miss James

I miss marie

i miss the moon

and i miss the stars

everyone

along with

everything

seems so very

far

away from me

ive been bummed lately. and everyone is going to yell at me for this but i dont care. im tired of being treated like i am incapable of holding my own opinion about anything at all without people freaking out over how i am terribly wrong, im tired of feeling like i have no voice. im tired of being lied to by my "friends" saying that they cant hang ( Read more... )

i ran over a racoon on the way home tonight...........and i cant stop crying. i pulled over and picked it up and went and buried it and then sat in the middle of the field for a half an hour or so and cried on my back watching the clouds wash back and forth against the starless sky of slate. i tried to swerve and i skimmed a try just barely, didnt ( Read more... )

i feel really horrible. i made justine feel bad i think because i got kinda upset at her party. i was trying. but i couldnt just be............not afraid. i get so stressed out, so nervous in certain social situations. and i know nobody saw me, because i made all my hair hide my eyes. but i sat and cried for a while becuase i...just couldnt handle ( Read more... )

the funniest thing about all those roads that lead to rome is that each and every one of them leads away from it as well.

the funniest thing about all those roads that lead to rome is that each and every one of them leads away from it as well.

everyone is having such a wonderful lovely time now. save for me. im starving to feel alive. but i havent in so long ( Read more... )

stupid peice of crap website.

grrrrrr work or i will kill you. stupid iriskillsthecornea website
where the hell are you work or i make you dead! d-e-d dead!

i hate life. i hate parents. they take my car way for not doing three math problems that i had four more days to do simply becuase i did not due them the night they were assigned. they take my books away my papers and pens. they forbid me from writing....................................................................i am not healthy when i do not ( Read more... )