CONNEAUT.
saturday.
12:00.
im out of here.
again.
but im with my family.
i hate that part.

gretchen is cool.
my dad is cool.
but my mom, eh.
lets not go there.
anyway, i think it should be fun.
pat is forsure coming.
his mom still has to talk to my mom.
sheesh.

have you ever just not liked someone?
like, you dont have a reason..
but you just dislike them?
yeah, ( Read more... )

hello everyone.
i dont know why i said "everyone."
it's not like anyone really reads this anyways.
but that's okay.
anyway.
i think this might be a quick entry.
i really don't have anything to say.
shit is still the same.
i want to say a really big THANK YOU to my good friend Sarah Cailin Smith.
i love you honey.
you mean so much to me.
thank you!
yesterday ( Read more... )

I seriously do not understand why she hates me so much. I feel like I do nothing wrong, but really everything I say is a complete mistake. I honestly cannot stand living here anymore with her. I fucking hate the people who are so buddy buddy with their moms. Actually, that's just being childish. I only envy them. I think I'd give up anything for ( Read more... )

It's been a long while, hasn't it? I've been in North Carolina at my sister's house with an awesome friend named Lauren. We had a blast. Thanks, Lauren, for coming with me! And thanks, Gretchen, for having us down. I love you ( Read more... )

(x) smoked a cigarette ( Read more... )

  its mucho calor outside

i just drank green koolaid.

i think me and pat are
  engaging in a good time
  at the mall tonight.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE.
 ^i love her to death.
  shes the only one who
  knows when something's
  wrong with me. =)

I am dying my hair brown
  tomorrow.

I feel like poop.

I miss my old best friend
  miss Ashley DeSantis.

I ( Read more... )

so i was sitting in my room last night writing whatever came to my mind.. and this is what i came up with.

if i saw a shooting star, i dont know what id wish for. i would like to wish something for someone else, but if i had to wish something for me, id be clueless. i sit here and complain, and i think there are so many things that i want, but when ( Read more... )

i've recovered from that last entry, besides this burn on my arm. tonight i had volleyball. so much for my last practice. i felt like shit and wanted to go home. im skipping school tomorrow and leaving for columbus with chloe around noon. im excited, friday night should be fun. im pissed we have to play ALL FUCKING DAY saturday. all i want to do is ( Read more... )

have you ever felt like you dont belong? that you really dont mean anything special to them at all? that youre just taking up space? you dont want to leave them with the grief and pain, but youre just causing yourself pain by wasting air. because of the pressure, you do horrible things to yourself, when deep down in your heart you know that its not ( Read more... )

It's only Wednesday, and I'm already so tired that I want to sleep all day. I took a nap after school until about 6, then went tanning with my mom. He is of course working tonight. And if I would have known that last night was basically my last night with him until Monday, I would have had him over or something instead of the KO thing. Oh well. He' ( Read more... )