So yeah im getting the feeling like my friends dont want anything to do with me. N came down hasnt called nothing. She promised to chill with me atleast once cuz shes stood me up a few times. Well im not so much hurt that she hasnt hung out but the fact that she promised.what ever i guess im not as important to her as i thought. i dont know if she ( Read more... )

looking through one of my many note books and i found something i had written on yule. I know its not that far gone but i tottaly forgot about it. So its a meditation i had well i guess meditation not sure could be. Im at my pond/waterfall and i start to walk to my temple thinking of just chillaxin there for a bit. As i get to the path i see a new ( Read more... )

so its the ho ho today. Meh. nothing really exciting happened. we opened our presents last night. Good times. i got less of a haul than i thought but im happy with what i got. this past little while ive begun to finally get where i want to be. Ive had a few reality checks but its not stopping me. Im plowing my way through life. Ive hit an up and i ( Read more... )

Three things that scare me ( Read more... )

This Weeks been hell. Im soo swamped with school work. It doesnt help that i havent been going to school. Tooo tired and well wanting to shop. I seriously just want to drop out. I have way tooo much work to do. I keep saying that every weekend im going to settle down and do it but i just cant seem to do any of it. I get distracted by the stupidest

So tonight im chillin at *bucks with my mom, gary, and girl whos name is slipping my mind. and well there are these cops sitting inside and were outside. my mom drops something and the cops stare like shes littering. So we look down and see this tampon. we start to giggle and my mom has no clue what about. so gary picks it up and in slow mo passes ( Read more... )

So kelsey and i talked today. Good times. I think we worked everything out and maybe we will be able to hang out when we both get some free time. It feels good to get things back to normal again. YAY for normal LOL.

something to make me smile

*-;-* Simple Stuff ( Read more... )

Are kelsey and i even really fighting? it just seems like a little spat by two people who are over stressed. I dunno i could be wrong. Kelsey if you are reading this dont be mad. I dont know what im going to do about meditation. i think im going to give it to her if her and i are still fighting. I dunno i wish we could work things out. I tried ( Read more... )

Why is it when the darkness comes it seems like it will never go away. my eyes are blanketed with black and all around me is nothing but black. Im a statue in the middle of the sea where no one will find me. I call out for some help and no one can hear. I just wish i could live with out fear. Ive fucked up good ive fucked up reall good. I dont know ( Read more... )