It really has been quite some time since I've even bothered writing in this thing. I haven't been in much communication with many people.. Last night I had a vivid, and wild dream concerning my cousins in new york, whom i just visited about one week ago with david because my uncle with cancer, had passed away. The visiting part is true, but anyway ( Read more... )

I want to scream and cry.. I sent a text to david's mom asking if she thought he might be cheating on me. I didn't realize it would insult her. She told david and tony she didn't raise her children that way. If only she knew david's not so innocent.. But now I feel like i have been pushed away from their family, the family i run to, that family who ( Read more... )

i'll put these behind a fricking cut later. I'm late.
I got a new job i'm starting today. It's called DJs to Go in Cornelius by Starbucks.

Here's a photo of a beautiful cake I tried to make... It was sort of successful. I had purchased a neat cake decorating kit from Sur La Table in South Park.

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Oooh this is exciting! Me and David's one year anniversary is tomorrow, the 26th of April. Also his one year since he had his Eagle Scout ceremony at Latta Plantation. The day I met his entire family. And knew that this would be forever ( Read more... )

Alrighty kids nothing really new. I've lost 8.5 pounds since this past week of dieting and exercise and it's made me happy. I still have like 90 pounds to go, though. David's beside me playing a golf game on www.oreo.com, which is fun. we're in our computer class right now. It's a really easy class. Our teacher, Mrs. Patel, is simply wonderful. I ( Read more... )

Wake Up
Can You Hear Me?
You're so cleaver
Did you find me?
In the backroom
In your closet
In your suitcase
There's no running
I will find you
Like the glacier
Cuts the seabed, leaving Canyons
In your cheekbones
passing through you
in the shadows, scenes undo you

Our stupid motherfucking cunt seventeen year old neighbor ran his jeep through the front of our fucking house today.

They're making a police report soon.

Things are okay. I'm going to the gym twice a day. I need to lose 100 pounds. I'm burning 1000 calories a day and drinking only water and eating only fruit and salad ( Read more... )

The last three days with David have been....really extraordinary. I mean we'd been in this big...fist fight, sort of. It was harsh and terrible and heartbreaking.. But I think we've both really opened up to the understanding of what we are, and are starting to remember not to push each other around, starting to remember to not damage each other or ( Read more... )

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