oh my goodness, i jsut found out the my daddy is gonna be here for my birthday!!!!! so stoked! i knew he was going to be coming out to write sometime in april, but the fact the he will be here for my birthday is only rad. and esp since it'll be so soon after my mom and little siblings leave, it'll be almost like being with my family again..minus ( Read more... )

just got home from work in time to do, nothing short of more work..more important work in fact. i have barely looked at my speech that i attepmted to write on monday and it's really my own fault and if i do terrible on it..i have no one to blame. but i am going to be optimistic about it, and as jesse says..i will *visualize* myself giving my ( Read more... )

i find it flattering when i mention a fabulous band to someone and they actually take mental note of it, and make it a point to check the said band out. i wish i was capable of doing the same, but sadly my mind generally does not work for things such as remembering. but it's cool to see that other people really listen, and remember..i am quite ( Read more... )

for some reason i am holding myself back from people...i'm not taking full advantage of all my opportunities. i want to build friendships but i am not looking for the time for them to grow. i am putting myself first. it seems i keep running around in the same circles and i can't expect myself to grow if i am restricting myself from that growth. ( Read more... )

so i've been thinking about friends, thinkign about my friends..and a lot of the time i feel like i don't really know anyone, that i don't have any real friendships..which would more than likely bemy fault..but since i'm so up and down about every darn thing..i also think the very opposite of this. i have incredible friends i really do, and it ( Read more... )

i accidentally stabbed a vein in my finger with a knife today. i was opening something and in went the knife and out gushed the blood. thishappened about 30 mins ago, and i'm almost positive that i'm still bleeding. my finger is purple from being wrapped so tightly in a bandaide but if pressure is not applied the blood keeps on flowing, hmmm. ( Read more... )

i have that feeling that i have forgotten somethign important....don't you hate that feeling? i keep on thinkign over all of the things i was supposed to have accomplished thus far this week and it appears that they have been completed..but with me i never really know. i forget far too much for things such as remembering. what? oh i don't know ( Read more... )

in response to my last post...it's strange the way things end up working out. and even though things are not *worked out* i have so much faith that they will. it's not about saving someone as much as it is about truly being there in a way i have never had to be there before. setting an example, knowing that i *am* the example to them and they ( Read more... )

i so went on a super rad date last night. yah for tito's taco's and city walk. i was the only person on the date who had ever been to tito's before...i felt all knowledgeable, it was great. i sang and jumped around and danced around and was basically my weird self that a lot of people don't generally get to see. lucky david got to have a crazy ( Read more... )

no matter how tiring or exhausting or terribly horrible a day is, it doesn't really matter....because once somethign happens, i shortly forget it...i don't think i try to forget, i just do. i think i wish that i could remember, i think most of all i wish i could remember my childhood. forget that, i wish i could remmeber 5 seconds ago, i wish i ( Read more... )