my horoscope said that i would face a time where my true level of courage would be displayed... i hope that time is now because i have trouble seeing a time when i would need more courage. i have about two weeks left until the fine state of california takes my driver's license away and then it's my bike, my brother's house, and the city bus for a ( Read more... )

so i have a few friends who seem so fake... granted they were never very good friends of mine but more than associates and thus an lj entry ensues. mainly i have some people who i feel aren't very honest and forthcoming and that disturbs me, the idea of wasting time on wishy-washy folk disturbs me. so, i'm gonna stop reaching out to some peoples ( Read more... )

i had to close last night which ALWAYS means getting off at around 3am so in turn i slept through rugby this morning... as if i wasn't pissed at life enough now i don't even get the chance to "express" my rage and frustration. :-P

a film by terrance malik and a great adventure... i just got it in the mail today. many of you might have been bored by the thin red line (another malik film) but these movies are something that hollywood needs bad! :-P if you haven't seen the new world and want to borrow it let me know.

i'm coming back to lj because, simply, my life is in ruins. i just got a dui, i'm in debt, i have no prospects for a girlfriend or female partner at all, and school is right around the corner... that is a lot to think about. :-P

talk about a funk, i fee like total shit today. nothing seems to go my way, i'm not very excited about school, things i'm sure about seems far too uneasy. sometimes i think i should have moved to hungary a long time ago. i know things wouldn't have been any easier there but i might not feel so stuck in my way of life/feelings. does anyone know ( Read more... )

i've been at work all day and i must admit it's a little draining. i've had so many things on my mind this past week that my gitters are really getting to me. i pray that this weekend will seal certian deals. i rarely get nervous but right now i can't seem to overcome some shakes that have me by the balls ( Read more... )

this page is kinda silly. i really don't have much to say and i know most folks don't really give shit about my life or my activities ( Read more... )

today was tough for a number of reasons. i wish i could list them all but it is 2am and i have to be at work in 8 hours. am i doing the right thing? am i going after something and someone that is unattainable ( Read more... )

well i have to admit i'm a little lonely. i just hung out with erin today which was really good. after all the stuff we had been through is was good to have simple friendly afternoon. now i'm home and a little depressed and lonely. i'm sure things will work out for the best. i have strange luck in that department.