I kissed a friend. A friend who's been in love with me for 6 years. I did it only because 1)I was drunk. 2)He wouldn't shut up about it. 3)I wanted him to let me tell his ex-girlfriend to fuck the hell off and stop texting him cuz he was out with ME (which I never even got to do!) and that was what he wanted in exchange.

Not only was that stupid ( Read more... )

SO ( Read more... )

• money. savesavesave
  
• work. searchsearchsearchforanewjob
  
• school. focusfocusfocus
  
• room+closet. keepthingscleancleanclean
  
• weight. loseloselose
  
• dog. walkwalkwalkeveryday
  
• ridiculous crushes on gay boys. stopstopstop

Have I ever mentioned that I love squirrels? Well I do. They're so damn cute, yet so damn naughty! I've named all the squirrels that visit my deck every day to raid the bird feeders. The dog wants to kill them all, or maybe just play with their heads and find out if they have a "hoinker?"

Call me fucking crazy, but the snow seems to not bother me anymore. It used to be one of my most vile enemies, but now, yeah. I don't know what's up with that. To make things even stranger, I really, really, want to buy some land and move to some remote part of Alaska, near the ocean. I will have land, dogs, a fireplace, lots and lots of snow, and ( Read more... )

I can never sleep at night, because 1. Tristy kicks me, steals all the blankets and/or my pillow, 2.The cat feels the need to walk all over me, 3.I wake up at least once and have to go take ibuprofen for my tooth that's got an exposed nerve or something, 4.Dylan's alarm goes off at 630 in the fucking morning EVERY.GOD.DAMNED.DAY. The worst part? He ( Read more... )

• I quit smoking.
  
• Meds have lost mostly all effectiveness.
  
• Tristy turned 4 in August. He asked me a few weeks ago if I would be his mommy.
  
• He lives with me full time, and John 'visits' maybe once a week. If he's feeling especially ambitious he'll take him overnight.
  
• I still don't have any type of legal custody.
  
• Amanda has withdrawn from her weekly 1 ( Read more... )

woah. Things have changed much. I shall need a new layout if I am to return to keeping this journal up. So much to say, so little motivation.

god.damn.

Not my idea of a good time..
Court.
Interventions.
Calling Amanda a huge fucking liar as loud as I possibly could, standing in the front of the Family Justice Center. (which of course she is)

We were so close once. We can only truly hate the ones we've loved. She says I wasn't there for her when she really needed me. Hahaha. You mean I didn't ( Read more... )

GRRRRRRRRR!