I like randomly finding livejournal again. I enjoy reading old thoughts.

so yeah i guess wed night was a mistake... but i want to go back and relive it over and over. I've missed him so much. I'm trying to make myself realize that its not gonna happen and I have to move on, but it's so hard. I know he and Lindsey are on a break, and maybe I can get him back, but I really doubt it. I know on some level he has feelings ( Read more... )

WTF? you dont tell a friend that you are going to stop by and hang out for their bday, if you're not going to... especially when you haven't seen them in months ( Read more... )

Yey for a new car!!! I have a Jetta now- dream car. :o)
So yeah, pretty much, life is going well recently... I do very much miss Adam tho, and I guess that affects my everyday mood, but overall I'm doing well. So yey to that. I'm also sorta on my way to getting my blls paid off. So that will be fun.
anyways, thats all.
bye now

I MISS ADAM

Oh PS... My new car, that I got after my old car broke down..... BROKE DOWN!!!! AHHHHH

yeah I'm car-less here in sunny NC... and that's crap...

my car broke down.

of course.. why wouldnt it?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
life is a big pile of crap at the moment.
it'll be better, and i know that, but christ! how many things can drive me nuts in 2 weeks? really.

i just had the best night.... first me and kim went to anthony's and hung out with chris for awhile (he's cat-sitting for anthony) and then we went to the city with adam to go to a hooka bar. it was so much fun... so relaxing.... i always have such a good time with that kid. I love talking to him, because the conversation always keeps going, and we ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in a really long time, so i'll just write the basics and probably get back to them later ( Read more... )

I feel lost. Somewhere along the way, my mind, my emotions, my sense of being and my logic got all mixed up, and now i'm just.... crap. Yeah, it's the best way to describe it. I'm fine when I'm with other people, at least one other person... but when I have to sit by myself for more than 20 minutes, I start to think... and really, lately, that's ( Read more... )