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Yule
Wishing a bright and blessed Yule to those who celebrate it. The darkness has been particularly deep and sharp for me recently, and I am so grateful to my friends and loved ones who have brought me light and warmth.
We are halfway out of the dark.
'Sometimes a wild god' - John Hirons
Sometimes a wild god comes to the table.
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Christmas wishlist meme
Step One:
• Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJwhatever. The post should contain your list of 10 unlimited 8D holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really ( Read more... ) -
Another needless epilogue
I went to see the final of the Hunger Games films this weekend, and had high hopes given how good part 1 of 'The Mockingjay' was (as well as being pretty braced for horror because jfc those books).
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Dizzy
A week and a half on new meds, and have been back at work since Monday- glad to be so, but struggling. I'm still walking with a stick and exhausted and dizzy all the time, with regular heart...surges, I guess. Deeply fed up of feeling like this. -
A poem that made me cry last night
You silly little girl,
you think
you’ve survived so long
survival shouldn’t hurt anymore.
You keep trying to turn
your body bulletproof.
You keep trying to turn your heart
bomb shelter.
Stop, darling.
You are soft and alive.
You bruise and heal. Cherish it.
It is what you were born to do.
It will not be beautiful,
but the truth never is.
Come now ( Read more... ) -
"You're not the only monster"
CW: for Age of Ultron spoilers, hysterectomy, infertility, self-harm, depression, body-image, and my personal feelings about children etc.
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Bah
Back at work after a long weekend and my birthday and feeling odd. I have a fairly hefty load of (usual for me) post-birthday sadness, and future-fear (starting 1st permanent job, parents talking about retirement/moving), plus a lot of unclear and undirected feelings about another recent flurry of pregancies (this time including my cousins again) ( Read more... ) -
Mort
'“And he goes around killing people?” said Mort. He shook his head. “There’s no justice.”
Death sighed. NO, he said,... THERE'S JUST ME.'
- 'Mort' (1987)