July 20th and 21st I spent the entire weekend at the Ren Fair with Jon. He was more excited to be there when I was, lol. We were there almost from open till close and I did surprising well. The baby behaved herself too, probably because I was walking so much. It was nice to be away from technology and the world, I didn't want to come back but ( Read more... )

It's been a little too long. Found out why he stood me up and I find it hilarious now; he just stranded in a small town out by Byers and his phone died. After Wednesday night, I was no longer mad because I remembered the abilities I have that I can use without breaking my vows. I knew he wasn't hurt or avoiding me, that something had happened. ( Read more... )

So talked with my daughter's father and we seem to be making progress. Couples counseling will start again but I'm not saying we're back together; I still consider us separated. It's a good thing since he made plans to make me dinner tonight and stood me up. I'm a little pissed but not surprised or heart broken. He has a long way to go to earn ( Read more... )

Tried couples counseling and he told me that he wanted to do AA and that he had cut back on his drinking. Also said he wanted to get a real job to have more money. It was all lies. He thinks selling drugs is a good job to do as a father and was just hiding his drinking from me. It was suggested that we try couples counseling again and that I ( Read more... )

I am having a child with a man that turns into my ex when he drinks. I just jumped and moved in with him, thinking that somehow I would feel safer and less stressed out having the father of this child with me ( Read more... )

So the holidays are done and thank goodness! It was really stressful this year because of trying to get SMP to hit it's deadline, which it didn't, and Chris putting all this pressure on buying expensive gifts! When will he learn that it's the thought that counts? I do like that I have all 8 Harry Potter movies on Blue Ray and he got me, miss I ( Read more... )

I realized that I really hate the saying fake it until you make because it is never true. Pretending to be happy does not eventually make me happy, it makes me depressed that I have to hide my true feelings and put on mask for the world. I firmly believe in getting your feelings out as soon as you have them because if you keep the negative ones ( Read more... )

I really hate technology and I have two jobs that rely heavily on it! >.< Or maybe it's just the programming and the fact that it is not simple for a monkey to use. GRRR ( Read more... )

My new schedule at my day job makes me more productive there but less productive in my Mary Kay business and in SMP. No writing is getting done and no phone calls. I feel trapped in a struggle between what I want to do and what I need. I have to readjust my body to my new schedule and I did not even seem like I had gotten use to the old one. I ( Read more... )

This morning I finally figured out what I needed to do to reedit my Issue 3 of the graphic novel I am writing and started to work on it after avoiding it for almost two weeks. Then I allowed myself to focus on editing stuff. Now I feel better about that job ( Read more... )