I am SO insomnia's bitch!

to quote the movie title: "I'll sleep when I'm dead."

Sweetheart. I know you can hear me. And I also know that you are afraid. You fear the uncertainty of the next few months. Your hands shake surrounded by the anxiety of the mysterious horizon. What lies beneath that halo of light as the sun set priming life for yet another day of unknown pleasures or pain ( Read more... )

Sarah...I Love You!

There: I said it.

Sarah: I'M IN-LOVE WITH YOU

I've been accused by a few women of falling in love easily. Protectively I deny their accusations. I feel like their statement is a direct insult or worse, a devaluing of the love that I have to give. But honestly, I have felt like I was in love a few times when I wasn't. Perhaps I just needed the feeling of loving someone to replace the love ( Read more... )

I can't turn it off. These thoughts thunder through my head like Nordic warriors. My only refuge: to turn my heart off and recede back into the darkness ( Read more... )

It rushes through my body with an alien disregard. It causes my blood to thicken and my pores to seethe. My mouth begins to dry and my eyes begin to water. My chest tightens within the clasp of what must be the devil's fist. My breaths thicken like molasses. My mind spins. Though thoughts cloudy ( Read more... )

That's my new picture. Up there in the corner. Its DC comic's hero, ATOM SMASHER; my namesake.

He gets huge and breaks shit.

I weigh about 157lbs, so I don't do that much.

I also like the Hulk.

Perhaps I have anger issues.

Shit...its tomorrow already. Okay, first of all, I'm NEVER going to be able to wake up in time to catch any of the early football game tomorrow morning, which by sheer difficult luck started 5 hours ago. Second, I'm not really tired yet. Too tired to work on the love story/children's fable/tragic prose that I'm working on. My version, I guess, of ( Read more... )

I guess sometimes I'm able to fool myself long enough into believe that I can feel happiness; or at the very least, less unhappy ( Read more... )

I've been up for roughly 38 hours ( Read more... )