210 days ago I graduated. 190 days ago I met my son for the first time. About 160 days ago I let go of a long time love that I could not hold onto. 90 days ago I was 32 pounds heavier. In 20 days I will be relinquished of any and all duties regarding my son. At the year's end, my father, will be far away from Frankfort IL, and may never come back ( Read more... )

Suddenly transcending becomes an issue. The best part is going out the edge and looking out over the millions of chords streaming across the walls from one window to another. The matter is the advent of an ability to make my own with out...well I'll say with an ability that has not be had in years. Tonight or maybe this December I will understand ( Read more... )

Take the sum of your experiences. Observe the time it took to accumulate what you are trying to actuate. Think of the breadth of knowledge you have access to because you have seen and experienced what you did. Appreciate the amount you have aggregated in the time you have been here ( Read more... )

Last night I slept like a Jew during Krystal Nacht. I had too much coffee while battling high school algebra and geometry in preparation for the Test. I turned into psycho face and decided to keep up the steam until the wee hours of 1:30. (For you non 9-5ers add 8 hours to the time to gain an equivalency in sleep deprivation). I am determined by ( Read more... )

Guess what the cure is!

Today, no...Tonight I am having an experience that I have not had in recent memory. It is running up and down my spine and through my brain in a relay that is too quick and slippery to get a hold of at one time. The internal spotlight can only track the movement of the idea only for a few seconds before the moment ebbs out of reach. I am denied ( Read more... )

I realized last night that guilt should be discarded with a simple acknowledgment, and a regret should be given a courtesy flush when it comes up around friends. The love and the shame will linger no longer then they have to. It is time to make some changes to avoid a wasted life. It has already started, but I want to skip to the end to see how it ( Read more... )

I am studying for my GMAT, which I have on the 18th of October. It feels great to be moving forward like this again. Whew! It is sooo refreshing to go full steam ahead, and just charge at it. I am totally addicted to onward and upward ( Read more... )

I have come across a rare opportunity to sit down and write, and I can barely eek out a sentence without inserting a bromide or cliche statement. Honestly I am not sure what I did wrong to be sitting in on a Saturday. I have not been out for a while, and the wild life is alluding me some how. My past self would be more ashamed of me than I am of me ( Read more... )

There are trends that I can see in people, and it makes me wonder if am I the only one noticing? There are times we leave a loved one behind. There are moments where we accept roles that never really fit us; they were too small or just not aligned with our own self image. We walked around trying to recite the lines, but they never felt right. The ( Read more... )