How I really feel (written once and never looked back on)

[atwar664]

First, does anyone have a huge bottle of FUCK-IT-ALL? I need it. I am trying not to fly off the handle. I think that once someone gets pushed down enough times they begin to loose feeling. There is sort of a spriritual asphyxiation when the pressure gets too heavy. Some call it going crazy or cracking. I call it choking. But right now I am in the

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[sheriffjoe]

Mike

[atwar664]

You know I don't feel quite so bad after reading that. Thank you Joe. Life can be a motherfucker sometimes. Reading your description of the field, I was reminded of a place by my father's place that I used to slip out to once in a while when I needed to gather myself. It was a bike trail that ran through the heart of town and extended for miles in each way. During the summer I would strap on my earphones and go for a walk at night when the lightening bugs were out. I would listen to the music play. and just look forward to spending the night enjoying silouetted trees lit up but them. I wish I could be there now.

The future is entirely up to me. Since the old ways are not working so well, why not try something new?

PA ITB,

Mike