i feel like no one likes me. i feel like the few that ever did are talking behind my back. i feel like most dont think about me at all. i feel like centrelink are spying on me. i keep reading their multiple letters. i feel guilty. i feel anxious. why do they send me the same letter three times. is there something i should be seeing but shouldnt. am ( Read more... )

i just feel so sad. everyone is disappearing.

i feel ugly. ive been feeling this way for the last year, with a despicable urgency, as if im floundering in a sea of fat and horrible bone structure ( Read more... )

last night i made naify a pre-birthday, i know you work hard for us, you picked me up from Gaynor the other night, have only had seven hours sleep within the last three days, plus god i love you and dam you are sexy, dinner. i decided to create a mediterranean pasta dish, as it is his favourite origin of bitey bite. so i fashioned my own sauce, ( Read more... )

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dear old Southern in my hand, by one eye and sweeping lips ( Read more... )

Quick update. My beautiful garcon is by my side, needing the dolphin blanket he adores so much. Animals make me so happy, you give them affection and they love you twice as much, you cry in front of them and they sit beside you as if they know you need their comfort, you give them a food treat and they become wonderfully excited, they are so ( Read more... )

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Glorious christmas! Everyone loved my op-shopped bundles, including the cuff links one elderly lady gave me for free, which once belonged to her now deceased husband; beautifully kind woman. This was my fifth christmas with nathan. We did the usual breakfast and gifts with my family and then lunch and more gifts with nathan's family. I was fairly, ( Read more... )

i havnt been well for so long, quite a bit more than i had ever realised. this year has been horrid! i have made so many mistakes and have created a pile of regret and shame. there are so many things i will never forgive myself for. it is only recently, after finally finding the right medication and correct dosage that i am able to look back with ( Read more... )