fuck it i don't even understand. What the fuck is wrong with me?? First: i feel like a fucking failure because i DON'T need this journal what the hell!!!! But i guess it's the only thing that will fucking listen to me right now ( Read more... )

I'm sorry to everyone i never responded to.  I just couldn't...can't handle it. You're all great. thanks for trying to care. maybe you actually do. that's swell. I dunno. i just don't feel up to doing this anymore. the "Journal" and all that. the pro ana site. it was awesome but i feel so...i dunno. lethargic? i just don't want to care anymore or ( Read more... )

I weigh 90 pounds.

hehehe april fools.

Damn i wish hey? naw...i'm actually still at 100...ish...yesterday i was 100 but i am scared to check today cause i ate more than i thought i would...

SO my boy from my old town came to visit me!! OMG he is tres gorgeous. there is no fat on him AT ALL.  mmm it's making me dizzy thinking of him...

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um hey. So i broke my fast that didn't even last 24 hours. aaaaaaaand basically want to go to sleep and NEVER wake up. What the hell?! I can't get out of these stupid triple digits. I'm at 102 right now!! Sorry i even said that. You're all probably disgusted with me. I went on a hike today. Bascially i freaked out and went for a walk. Then i saw a ( Read more... )

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Looks like he's wearing little Ug boots! hahaha poor kitty.


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All is right with the world.

I am actually doing really badly recently...food wise. But it's been hard. I now live with my dad and he totally doesn't care about my eating habits or lack thereof. And so I am free.

And yet i keep thinking of my mom....at home. oh dear.

ANYWAY

I also feel really bad about this boy. you see i am on march break ( Read more... )

Um ok wtf ( Read more... )

I'm going to lose 12 pounds in one week. I know i can do it. I made a huge plan. WOOO.

Then i will be 104 by spring break. take that boy.