i just don't give a shit anymore. about anyone or anything.

all i really want to do is sit out on the beach somewhere and soak in some of that glorious sun that i see outside the library window.

to top things off, now i'm getting sick.

this is AWESOME.

i'm only 3 days in and i don't know how long i can keep going. i just want to quit already. it's so damn painful. i have 3 more hours of work ahead of me tonight, only to repeat it all tomorrow ( Read more... )

i looked in the mirror and was horrified by what i saw. i don't know what has happened to me. i look absolutely miserable.

in case you're keeping track. 20-question sets in immuno:
80.
68.

motherfucker.

sometimes, when i learn something new & cool & i want to share it with someone...i miss her.

like right now.

1 week and 3 days until i am officially 1/2 of a doctor.

it's 11 on a monday. i'm at the ed center (ie our computer lab) attempting to learn heart & bowel sounds. that is, post eating dinner at a time that's closer to most people's bedtime than it is to dinner time.

i don't like what my life has become.

sometimes i wonder if my great grandparents (my grandma's parents...the people that raised my mom for the most part) would be proud of me today. particularly, i want to make my great-grandmother proud. and sometimes i think i'm failing at it.

took 3 Kaplan question sets (each of 20 questions) on micro.
70.
50.
80.

this is going to be a very long few months.

i deleted my facebook for the next 8 weeks. it's like my arm was torn off. =(