Baby I love you ( Read more... )

God... Chris would have shit himself if I had agreed to go with him tonight! He thought by inviting me he would seem like a good guy. Truth is: by agreeing to go would mean leaving the house at 10pm and getting home around 3am when I know I have to be up at 6:45am. He knew what he was doing. Manipulation is a beautiful thing right? Oh well can't ( Read more... )

I have had a weird couple of days. I don't know where I'm going or what's going on. I'm tired...emotionally for sure and physically as well. I can't sleep. Plain and simple. There is too much going on in my head. I can't seem to make it all stop. A former team member's six year old nephew drowned yesterday, a very cute kid in fact, but I have this ( Read more... )

All alone ( Read more... )

I'm going to Tallahassee tomorrow night. Wow I can't believe the concert's here already. It's going to be so much fun and I can't wait. Bylla's going to Colorado and getting a break for a change-so good for her ( Read more... )

I have never felt so much growth in myself as I have today. I'm at work and taking a risk at updating this but I just feel so good and want to talk about it ( Read more... )

Well its almost the weekend. Gotta clock in in less than ten minutes but I'll make it. After today I'm off for three. Got loads of homework to do and plenty of time to do it, good feeling to have in my opinion. SSDD ( Read more... )

Weirdest week ever....Bylla came up had an awesome time, might move in together later down the road, who knows things change so much. Obviously because I made it here to Tampa. Whatever happened to those dreams and talks about Pittsburgh? What ever happened to those days I would kill to be on NEI? What would life be like if I hadn't made it here ( Read more... )

Well this upcoming Friday and Saturday are the first of my regularly scheduled days off that I've had in 3 goddamn weeks. But there's a catch as usual: Chris's boss has him scheduled both days and he's scheduled off on Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. YAY! The schedule works out perfect as you can see. So it looks like I'll be spending my days off at ( Read more... )

Thank god everything is fixed...I was a fricking wreck yesterday and I never want to feel that way again. I waited for Chris to call to say he wasn't coming home or at least tell me he was ok. I finally at 2:30am got in the car and went to his house where I found him asleep in his room. I woke him up and I was trembling because I finally knew he ( Read more... )