So lemme explain ( Read more... )

I'm trying to look calm but yet I'm still screaming on the inside...
I want to run away from the world...
I want to get drunk...
I want to get high...
I want to forget all my problems...
I want to forget everyone and everything that hurts me...

love to all...
and then some...

I hate becoming attached to people, it makes loosing them so much harder. Which is what is now happening. FUCK! I feel so upset... Why the fuck does this have to happen? Why does he have to go back to France! I feel like I'm losing everyone, I could seriously start crying right now. Earlier today I wanted time to move faster and now I want it to ( Read more... )

Ugh...I feel sick...I think I'm going to go vomit now...On a brighter note I have figured out what to do w/ Chris and the decission has made both of us happy. Not to mention that Rachel has now said "i luv u and if chris makes u happy he makes me happy!" Yey! And I heard back from Hank! Yey! And I'm visiting 2morrow (hopefully) Yey! Okay, too many ( Read more... )

I am so very confused, so very, very confused. All of a sudden we are going out? I don't recall him asking me out and I'm hearing different things from my friends. Nina is happy for me, as is alot of people but Rachel, Rachel says that he is creeping her out...She says that we shouldn't date since we don't know each other that well, well that maybe ( Read more... )

HOLY FUCKING SHIT! THE MOST AMAZING THING HAS JUST HAPPENED! I'M IN MENTAL SHOCK! WOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! >deep breathOkay ( Read more... )

Holy shit, I just had the CRAZYIST night or maybe I should say morning...! Like wohhh, that was the most fun I have had in awile! That was deff the best VDay I have ever had...So this is how it went. Rachel and I took the metro down to B-Town to meet up w/ Dana, Torante, and Dana's friend Gigly (or something like that) and Gigly's boyfriend, Alex. ( Read more... )

I feel weird. I was happy, then I was sad, and now I'm like happyish/content ooo I know the perfect word! Mellowwwww...So heres what happened, I got into a discussion w/ Joe after my last entry and that made me sorta upset, I unno... Then Martin signed on and that guy always makes me laugh! Hes so sweet and cheerful. This time he was very, very ( Read more... )

Woh...This weekend took a 360 and today is only sat...I expected it to suck but it's been really good so far (besides the fact that it is VDay). First off, my mom took me to buy make-up and cloths since I have been in a slump and "retail therpy" helps me, haha. While at the mall my sister ran away, that was fucked up, but shes back now. God I feel ( Read more... )

HA! I'm sitting here watching this Queer Eye For The Stright Eye special, man I love that show! Much to everyones surprise that is, tehehe. So today was a meh sorta day. I'm kinda pissed about somethings but that is mainly just because of the stupid so called "holiday" that's coming up. I feel bad that all my girlies are gonna be outta town, except ( Read more... )