freexgone: no its fine we'll both go to sleep now and be like goodnight pretty, and when we wake up we'll call and say to eachother good mourning

oh yeah, he's so mine. <3

i am pleased with how life has been treating me. i think that once i decided to stop fighting it, we came upon a semi-decent agreement with one another...goal is still to concur you/the world. anyhow, love classes, love the boy, love the family(crazy!, i know.), love the possibilities...still fucking worried and scared and paranoid and anxious as ( Read more... )

i quit lj.

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=aurora_misery

fuck it.

it'll never be the same. and it isnt only my fault.

take responsibility instead of running and hiding.

( bored. so entertain me... )

i have the best friends in the world. i can't deny that. yet i continue to look for attention 24/7. i can't be content with being on my own, even for a short while. it makes me feel small and insignificant. i need to constantly feel wanted and appreciated. for once i want someone to fall as madly in love with me as i am with them, and both be happy ( Read more... )

thursday made me happy.
friday madde me happy.
saturday: ready to be back in norman

details later

i hate how i ruin everything good i ever have. i think frain is pretty much done with me for good now. i'm not quite sure how i feel about this yet. things with devin obviously went astray, but i am truly happy that he is with catherine now, as long as he is happy with that, which seems to be the case. and i feel shitty about things with andrew, ( Read more... )

ok, i just might think that'll make it and be ok...er, i know i will. two and a half more years in this fucking place, no problem. i have a lifetime left...i have forever to find someone who will actually be with me, and love me the way everyone should be loved, and the best part...hopefully be within less than 200 miles of them. grand!?, i know. i ( Read more... )

i loathe the entire male species.