i  guess now i'm learning what the word patience means. that's my biggest problem, i'm the most impatient person i know. i just need to learn to sit back and enjoy life. not worry about if someone wants to be my friend or not. life is all about time and waiting for things to happen. i've been one of those people so far in life that has said, "i'm ( Read more... )

 i don't know if you're completely out of reach now or not. you said you didn't wanna relationship, but now it seems like you don't really want a friendship anymore either. : / i still like you a lot but i don't know how you feel

so, uh. i got kicked out of the house last night....? and i walked about 7 miles to get to my destination. it was cold and i slept on your porch because i was so tired from the journey. i waited for your parents to leave so they wouldn't be alarmed by my coming. and you graciously invited me in and let me stay in one of your beds. covered me with a ( Read more... )

 one night i was walking, well i started off running a normal course that i take at night when noone can see me. sweat, complain, lag...etc, etc.  and i started to slow down and i thought to myself i can just think about things and walk. so i stopped at winshall park and i began to walk up the hill there. and i thought i saw someone walk next to me ( Read more... )

i  haven't updated any really. but then again, not a whole ton has happend either. i've been losing weight, i've lost about 17lbs and have been gaining muscle. my pants are slowly but surely falling off my ass. my life has kind of been meh, lately. maybe i just have to accept the fact that i won't have a lot of female friends or get attention from ( Read more... )

it's not too hard for me to tell when people are lying to me. i get a gut instinctive feeling that doesn't leave. when people are being fake, illegitemate, or liars. don't fucking tell me something and play me for a fool. i'm done with it, i figure out everything, either by people telling me when i don't want to know, or by me just having that ( Read more... )

 my arms hurt ( Read more... )

fuck my life has been the main theme for the past month. and i'm sure that's the way it'll stay for a little while

 =)

there were a ton of things i should've/wanted to say but didn't.  i'm sure you know how i feel though, so sometimes words aren't necessary. it's nice, sometimes people don't have to say anything because the silence says everything for you

haaaapy!

 i'm feeling pretty alright about myself despite recent events. it's whatever, it was ended because of stupidity. but whatever, she ended it. and there's nothing else to say about it. i've moved on. i'm almost certain i handled it with the upmost maturity

there's been a pretty girl that i've like for quite a while though. we'll see what happens