Fuck.
i should have been there for her.
i feel like cutting the shit out of my wrist.
she was ready to forgive me.
she was ready to talk through it all and trust me again.
this is fucking killing me!
why me? what the fuck...why??
im fuckin deteriorating.
self destructing.
i should have been there...
i cant breathe.
my head is pounding.. 

I'm not going to bother updating. Another horrible mood is all you need to know.

*The Basics*
Name:: Liv
Age:: 16
Gender:: girl
Hometown::  Bucurest, Romania
Current location:: Toronto
Who you live with:: rents & bro
Zodiac::  Aries
Chinese zodiac:: Horse
School:: VP
Job:: Stable-hand at King
Ethnicity:: white...
Hobbies/Interests:: music, horseback riding, ( Read more... )

So I had riding tonight. Amazing lesson. But I'm in a bad mood....fuck it. Seriously. Here's a song that pretty much describes it all....

No It Isn't
Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces we'll choose to ( Read more... )

Holy shit. I haven't updated in forever. Ok...so in brief. I've been busy with playing and coaching Volleyball. Our volleyball team is now in first place. Sweet deal. Actually, both of our teams, senior and juniors. Riding is awesome. I'm going tomorrow. I haven't been in a while because my back has been off the wall. Spatz might be going for sale ( Read more... )

Well, another eventful day has gone by. yah right. NOTHING happened yesterday. I haven't really been doing anything interesting. Today I go up ride Manny, then ride at King. Tomorrow I have my guitar lesson. Thursday nothing eventful is happening that I know of. Friday I have another guitar lesson. Saturday I work and then Season comes over! ( Read more... )

I'm reading this book called Keeping You A Secret and it's about this girl that was going out with this guy for like a year or so and she fell in love with another girl, dumped the guy, got kicked out of her house because she's a lesbian and is just surrounded by homophobia. It just made me think about the worst case scenerios. I mean, my mom knows ( Read more... )

Last Person ( Read more... )

Wow.
Today just blew my mind. I don't even know how to explain it. Season and I talked for like 3 hours and it felt like old times. Like nothing ever happened. So many memories that have been buried in the ground just got dug up. So many emotions that were hidden away have been unlocked. I can't explain how I feel really, but all I can say is that I ( Read more... )

okay uhm, well, I dropped my phone in water yesterday. Not so smart so it's drying off right now. Rainbows and Butterflies have GOT to explain how I feel right now. I'm not even kidding. I've been so amazingly happy since last night. I was listening to Roger Waters and who decides to call me other than Season?! I'm going for my G1 tomorrow. I ( Read more... )

okay we're going to try this updating thing without me passing out. Today..hmm. Nothing happened really. I've been feeling really sick all day so I haven't gone anywhere. I went to the pool for about 45 minutes but was only in for like 10. But yesterday, yesterday was a fun day ( Read more... )